towards end of leave

I am kind of stressful.. With d conditions at the moment. I am going back to work soon. Juz like few more days. Urgghh..n i tak nak keja lagi dah. I nak stay home jaga my kids at my own place. Sumtimes i juz nak speed up d time. Biler mcm ni pressure. My son's habit plak bile we all marah mula lah pggl atok n wan. Back ups. N at nite bile nk sleep nk ade drama. Sleep nk lmbt aje. I biler nk marah i kena pk few times.. One sbb i kat umah in laws. One sbb he is stil young. One if i tak teach him now i'll regret later. One nnt die jd lemak.. Lagi satu suka sgt main phone n buka tutup pintu.. Geram i..

Tension i.. Pressure pun ade. Biar die mlm ni. I tak nak layan die..

Chow.. Sleep is better now.

little zafran now dh 2..

Dilemma

Banyak benda yg i pk dlm mind ni... Hmm.. Sumtimes juz wonder shud i share it with sumone or juz share it with my blog je.. Blog tu semestinya la..

I mmg ada thought of quitting job tp financial stability of my cute family blom stabilize sgt. N i tak nak sit at home je. At least i bole generate sket income like rm 500 per month. At least i ada pocket money to move about.. Hmm.. Tp most priority is to find a job in d nearest place like plg jauh is subang la coz i have to consider travelling from klang to kl every day. Bnyk jgk cost dia n lagi satu stress n penat. Nnt smp umah tak sempat nk main ngan may kids..

Talking bout my kids.. Zara dah 37 days ni. Alhamdulillah.. Juz d last few days i got sore throat, batuk n sesema. Tp i kena mkn ubat nk cpt elok so i blh look after my son n dotter. Zara juz ruam kat badan blom kurang sgt. Maybe coz d day is hot kan.. Cian dia. Wan n mummy apply cream kat badan n face dia..

Talking bout chitom, he is now semakin noti.. Ada je benda dia buat kena marah/jentek/puk n mcm2 la.. Dia now pggl i mama... Hahaha.. N dia boleh sebut few words lagi like bapak, adik, atok, adam, kakak, jatuh.. Wan jd yan... Yg cute tu pillow jd lallow.. Hahahaha... Syg dua dua budak cute ni..

Sabar ye.. Insya allah.. Mummy will figure out how to fulfil that only wish..

Oohh.. Lagi satu kan nk share.. I n husband ada time kena marah ngan atok sbb marah cucu dia.. Hey! Not fair ok.. He needs to be scolded. Tu yg kengkadang tu geram je... Ada org back up.

syian chitom mummy... :(

After second delivery of baby girl I ada rs a bit sad sbb my first son asyik nk nangis je... but mummy love u too! Nnt adik dah besar sket u got fren to play with ok... :)