i'm nervous

when i looked at my baby's countdown i rasa sgt nervous. kat situ tulis lagi 94 days which means like 3 more months to go. o-o. camne. hehehe... baby dlm tummy pun dah nak masuk 7 months. kejap je kan time tu. kalo kira salary lagi 3 bulan then dh smp time. last week i kena wat diabetic test. kena puasa start friday mlm. so b4 tido tu i makan biskut n roti cicah air ovaltine. talking bout malta drink dah lama tak minum milo. sebab my in-laws house tak minum milo. milo 3 in 1 rasanye tak sedap sgt compared to bancuh nye. mmg la i wat tak manis tapi taste milo tu lain. ni kalo pegi makan kat luar baru dpt minum milo or else takde. huhu.. :( back to the diabetic test. masa mula2 amik darah tu, ingat kena amik satu tu ke ape tapi amik sket je kat hujung jari. time puasa 4.1 pastu kena minum air gula then puasa lagi for 2 hours. so sambil menunggu tu husband bwk la jalan2 kat space u8. new shopping mall. very big and dia kata tu environmental green. hmm.. tapi kan kipas dia sgt unik. mall tu besar. surau dia pun cantik. satu floor tu kat one end mmg diorang dh siapkan surau tu. very unik n cantik.
well almost 2 hours dtg blk jumpa nurse tadi. amik reading and naik to 4.8 i was a bit nervous la sbb nak tau results. tp alhamdulillah everything's ok. pastu doctor tu explain bukannye apa. sbb i mentioned that my sis ada case dulu kan so they nak pastikan yang i punya baby pun ok. pastu doctor ada mention lagi most prob i have to go for c-section again. i kalo bole mmg nk normal delivery tapi dia explain sbb umra tu small. facilities tak banyak. tak nak amik risk so they all mmg akan ceasar la. :( camne?? i dh mula pk bukan2. alamak. ke nak kena tuka hospital ni? hanya tuhan yang tau apa yang i rasa at that time. even until now pun i rasa like serba salah. camne ni yang? malas la nak tanye husband i. dia kan sibuk skang ni. at the moment i bnyk doa that i n baby sihat. nnt i will think n decide la.