Being a mom :)

This is based on my own experience. It may not be the same with others as i believed everyone is being created differently in this world. There could be few things in common with your partner, with your friends and even your family members. There also things u dont disagree with all of them right. Lets embrace the differences.

I have left my career world somewhere 10 years ago. Wow! Such a long time yah! Well not evryone can accept that facts even my parents. Even until now, my dad still send some job opportunities to be considered. Tapi kita tengok and scroll lah. Silent je.

Through out all this time, ada masa mmg mcm macam feelings ada. Happy, sad, anger, geram, panic. Tapi pastu diri sendiri je yang boleh heal kan diri sendiri. Yess! Love yourself itu penting. Then. Baru boleh salurkan rasa love to your kids and families kann. Hehehehe.. oklah till then. 

Finished reading a book!

Finally, i have already finished this book since January 2025 eventhough the book is not that thick. Hahahaha.. blame it to me. A few weeks the book has been sitting nicely just on the table without me even picking it up. And lastly, habis jugak! Tapi for me this title a bit boring. But mula mula tengok title macam i am sooo interested and mcam best je nak baca. Donno lah. Maybe to me kot. Maybe other readers find it amazing. I got actually like around 7-8 more books to read. And i havent even decided to read which one yah! So.. lets keep on guessing how long will the next book finish? Up to 10 months jugak kot. Hahahahaha :)

October - exam month

Final exam uasa for all the kids. Older kids start this week. Bongsu next week. Then cuti deepavali. Semoga diberikan ketenangan dalam menjawab exam, sihat tubuh badan dan dpt fokus in the exam. :)

Today 30th september 2025

Hahahaha… been wanting to blog but i didnt. Its the second posting this month. Kind of busy nowadays. Hahahah… no lah. Sometimes i just forget to write. And when i wanted to write, the phone is with my kids. The whole day. When i have it back. Again i forget. Ok. Hopefully by tonight i will continue to write more. Now is just to have another posting in this month and cooncidently it is end of the month. :) till then. 

September posting - zafran perform

Its already 11 days in september. Alhamdulillah. 

The eve of merdeka , zafran and his school band join the merdeka parade this year. They did well despite the first time joining the parade after 10 years plus excluded. Tapi of course before that, full of practises to make it perfect. Me and my schedule pun changed. Timing kena ikut time abg habis. Nak fetch dia lagi. Pass him food semua sbb towards the end, his canteen out of food. And he needed to stay until 4.30pm so mmg kena send bim food or else kesian pulak dia ni. Tak mkn apa2 smp ke petang. Gastric nanti. 

On the day itself, i drove as early as 6pm from my house towards shah alam. Myself pun yg nervous tak memasal. Told zafran before he left in the afternoon, i will be coming to watch him perform with zara & zayyan. So kita pun siap2 and tapau food serba sikit so boleh lapik perut before real food. 

Husband touched down around 5.30. So he reached home and cleaned up before fetching us.

As for us, we get to walk and got ourselves place to stand and sit almost to the grand stand so that we can watch and shout abang’s name. Hahahaha. Itu tugas zara & zayyan. :)

Zayyan sampai tertido ye. Tunggu parade. Sampai parade start baru la bangun and lucky dia dah recharge sket. Pastu tunggu turn abang, jerit lah cheer kuat-kuat. Hehehehe. 

We waitrd till bunga api. And then headed home to fetch abg at school before we call off the day. 

Zayyan’s sports day

Alhamdulillah. Dah selesai. Despite ada demam sikit in the mid week before hari sukan tu, he managed to complete his task. Walaupun takde medal, i am proud of him. Tahun depan cuba lagi ye. Maybe with more proper shoes, training and teamwork dia. Kecingan dia. Tapi takpelah. Next ye cuba lagi ye bucuk boy! :) and semalam i fulfilled daughter’s wish utk mummy masuk acara ibu which is 4x50m. Dapat no.4. Hehehe. Dapatlah bakul hadiah saguhati. Ahahahahaha… :) 

Movie time with zayyan

He wanted to watch movie Demon Slayer. He actually just know that i wanted to go by myself watching freaky friday 2. Tp ended up kena tengok movie dia. Gosh! It was 2.5 hours long and as expected, he fell asleep in the theatre. :) ada lah dia tido for 20-30 mins. Hahahaha.. so as myself never come accross my mind to read or watch this anime, ended up kena pace up and faham kan semua characters dia. So i gave 7/10 for the movie. So if lepas ni ada sequel, i boleh tau dah. Kann..kann.. :)

Mama’s birthday - 19082025

Alhamdulillah! Mama is 75 years old today. Got to wish her on the phone already. How i feel sad like crying knowing that both my parents are already 70++ semoga dipanjangkan umur & dimurahkan rezeki. Shima sayang mama & abah. Will always keep both of u in my prayers. :)

Happy birthday zayyan

The youngest has turned 8 on 9 august. Supposedly gi makan kat tempat ‘luxurious’ katanya. Hahahaha.. tergelak mummy. Rupanya nak makan carbonara. So sebenarnya nak makan western food lah. Hehehehe.. so we decided to go for dinner. Tapi petang tu i balik from beli cake tgk muka dia dah monyok. Pastu masa pasangkan belt pegang perut dia, warm. Then terdetik dalam hati. Dia ni demam. And yes its true. Check temperature 36.6 so dah standby check ubat demam ada lagi ke tak? I bila zayyan demam, i selalu runsing yang amat. The last time he got fever until myself got anxiety and my tummy got upset really bad. Like wind for 2-3 days. I need to learn to cool myself down. Selawat, and baca ayat qursi. Zikir. It helps. Alhamdulillah. So sambung cerita. Lepas maghrib siap2 nak pegi dinner lah. Badan dia mmg heaty and dia mmg nak nangis je rupa. Naik keta suruh dia tido and bawak selimut. Sbb dia sejuk. Sampai kedai makan, half way jalan daddy decided to chiow from the place coz 1. Parking jauh giler dari entrance sbb malam minggu. And ramai org. Zayyan pulak nak menapak tak latat. I need to carry him. Thinking that the place must be late to serve. So i decided pegi kedai makan yg dekat dgn our house. Order lauk simple. While other 2 kids makan with husband, i waited in the car with zayyan while he sleeps. Dapat lah diorang makan for like 30-40 min plus waiting time. Then turn kitorang makan, managed to suap zayyan half of one senduk nasi. And myself pun makan setakat nak lapik perut tak masuk angin. Sampai rumah je, clean up dia bagi ubat demam and ask him to sleep for the nite. I time tu tgh berkira-kira nak kejut dia for next ubat pukul berapa ye? I is panick and jam. :/ takpelah. Sabar. Insyaallah! 

Next day dia bangun awal around 6.30am sbb cam dah lama tido. I pun decided to bangun awal. Panaskan nasi. Bagi dia makan and feed ubat demam at 7.30 sbb badan start panas balik. Pastu he feels better. Main lah game for 2 hours coz that is supposed to be the time limit rite. Then husband said we are going back to the place yesterday for proper meal since zayyan requested for it. Plus not so so many ppl plus parking pun dpn entrance je. Alhamdulillah.  Despite of ada muka monyok sikit, he managed to eat the carbonara. Half lah habis. Pastu dia dah kenyang. Sampai rumah, clean him up bagi ubat and sponge dia dgn wet towel. Pastu dia tido until almost 6pm. Kecingaannnn diaaa. Get well soon baby! Mummy loves u!

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Alhamdulillah for 16 years together. Semoga yang baik2 saja untuk u. Didnt have any fancy dinner for the celebration. Kita minum teh tarik kat mamak pun dah ok. :) hehehehe… sambil makan roti canai. 16 years not that long compared to my parents. 060474-060425. Diorang dah 51 years together. Kadang2 ada je advice that i get from them without them actually knowing it. Secara indirectly lah. So happy for them. Tapi u know what, kadang2 as their kids ada time kita pun tak paham the way they talk. Bunyi macam marah tapi sebenarnya itu ayat conversation biasa je. I guess i am orang yg mmg sweet lembut ye. Bila org yg biasa cakap kuat or ayat bunyi mcm marah, mula lah rasa nak nangis. Hahahaha.. so shima. 

To my husband, thank you for trying to making the best for me and your kids. Thank you sebab try to cukupkan all d needs we need. Take care your health too. Love ya! This time we throw back wedding photos ya. :)

Lotion or mist?

After finishing all my body lotion and mist (almost), and coincidently got promotion, buy 2 free 2, i grab four. 2 lotions and 2 body mist. Hehehe.. thank you husband. :)

Welcoming new month

 

Alhamdulillah entering a new month. On the 1st started with zayyan’s report card day. Pastu we went sight seeing sampai ke Jelebu, Negeri Sembilan. Enjoying the view. Memang cantik. Plus ada sunlight so memang view on point. :)

Sambil sight seeing tu singgah lah makan. Sampai rumah balik around 9pm. Clean up and rest for the day. :)

Yaay! This month banyak pegi brisk walk

Today i manged to jog + brisk walk. Takde lah rasa penat sangat. Tp mengah tu tetap ada. :) to more walking and jogging in the next month. Semoga istiqomah. :)

Washing husband’s car

We swapped car tapi ada task assigned to me when swapping our cars. Kena wash his car and sabun kereta tu dah color grey. Hehehe.. after that belanja myself icecream. :)

Coming through

Hehehe.. i managed to brisk walk for a couple of times this month. And this week starting with a stomach ache. And a period pain. So i decided to go on thursday. Hopefully on saturday or sunday, there will be another session as tomorrow i will be busy running errands. :) 

I wanted to go to sleep already. Well, will type in soon as i want to say more of the things happening. :)

Another new month

Well, its mid July 2025 already. Alhamdulillah! Many things actually running through. From kids not feeling well end of June, with husband’s slip disc and double work load plus kedai, and widot. Yeah! Terasa mcm pack sikit even nak lepas kan benda wajib for kids food pun stuck. Hadoii! Sabar je lah. And sometimes at this time mmg i kena kena kena banyak diam sebenarnya. Sbb husband tend to get angry easily.  Pastu mmg rasa dia tgh bash kita. :) sabar je lah shim. Sure there will be some ease time. :) 

Btw, i started going for brisk walk again. Its been like missing the past 2 months rasanya. Hehehehe.. hopefully more fruitful km i can earn this month. 

And never ending house chores particularly lipat kain. 

Happy birthday abang

Mummy doakan semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki, sihat tubuh badan, berjaya di dunia dan akhirat. Believe in yourself. :)

Salam awal muharram

Another new year is Islamic calendar. It is welcoming 1447H year already. Alhamdulillah. Semoga setiap hari berazam menjadi yang lebih baik dari semalam and istiqomah. Aaminn. :) wishing for healthy lives, dipermudahkan urusan, dimurahkan rezeki.  :)

Finding myself again

The past two three weeks feels like i wasnt really myself. Easily get distracted. Easily get moody. Easily unfocused. And then i be happily singing one or two songs loudly like nobody business. Too much in my thinking that i dont bother sharing it with anybody else. I dont need anybody else validation. Myself to validate is more i think of. Family, husband, kids, parents and more lah. Yess! I am overthinking rite. Always telling myself that sabar and sabar is the key. And sure it will be at ease. Inshaallah! 

Zafran’s sports day

Today first time mummy support him for secondary school sports event. Dia masuk marching past as pengawas sekolah. Training for like 2-3 days. Oklah. Team members semua smart pakai uniform blazer semua. Alhamdulillah tuhan belanja weather. Pagi subuh tu hujan lebat giler. So the day was quite cold so bila kena march tgh stadium tu, ok lagi lah walaupun dah pukul 10-11 pagi. Hehehe. Congratsss machitom!

Happy 13th birthday adik

Selamat hari jadi adik! 13 years ago mummy beranak kan dia lepas dah turun darah after breakfast. Kelam kabut siap kan diri and start rasa nervous and panic. Pagi tu BIL send to hospital coz husband is working.husband waited at the hospital. Doctor and nurse check the routine things. Lps tu standby utk masuk labour room. Tapi right now as in now now wonder kenapa masuk csect eh? Tak pegi normal way of labour. Ke sbb dah turun darah? Hurmm.. ntahlah. Potong lagi tummy mummy. Keluarkan seketul adik. Its baby girl. Alhamdulillah! Mula lah process of membesarkan dia dari kecik sampai umur sekarang ni. Pening, sakit, muntah, demam, sakit perut, batuk and many more. From tadika to form 1. Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Semoga dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki, menjadi anak yang solehah, berjaya di dunia & akhirat. :) mummy loves u!

He bought flower for mummy

Masa amik dia dia cakap ada surprise untuk mummy. Puas la teka apa tu eh? Pastu dlm kereta terus keluarkan flower. Katanya sebab mothers day. So dia belikan satu for his mummy. And kad ucapan pun ada. Yang buat dlm kelas. The cute part is “terima kasih sebab bawak saya pegi mall, masakkan saya makanan” hehehehe… thank you ye si kecik. :) shayam dia. 

Leg injury

While playing football he sprain his leg. So i brought him to see doctor. Doxtor ckp the tissue selalunya koyak. Kalo terseliuh mcm ni. Kalo takleh jalan terus maybe putus. Kecingan dia. Off lah school and bola dulu ye.