chitom 1st outing

where to? quality hotel. berbuka puasa. eventho mummy tak puasa. haha.. chitom tido kejap je kat dlm stroller kakak piah. pastu lain2 mata die celik. tgk bnyk lampu lip..lap..lip..lap.. hehe.. so chommel anak aku ni. i makan stil berwaspada jgk. takut effect chitom. btw, really enjoy the session. thanx.

happy ramadhan

selamat berpuasa! walaupun i tak berapa digalakkan berpuasa tapi saja nak wish. first year celebrating with chitom. hehe.. happynye saya. btw, hari ni saya dah officially habis pantang. alhamdulillah. bole la makan sket2 ape yg dulu tak leh. tapi bile jaga makan kan rasa perut kurang nak sakit. badan best. nway chitom pun bf nnt syian die kalo i makan ntah pape.. die pun kena jgk. another update weight i dh kurang ke 49kg. hmm..tp makan bole tahan. mum ckp sbb baby bf kot. tu la psl.
tadi i dh setel registration cuti sem. dad teman. pastu gi beli nappy chitom. hehe.. daddy die tak balik tonite. esok baru balik. my parent ade jgk tanye tapi ntahla.. he knows himself better. kalo larat balik. kalo tak tak payah. tapi skrang yang constraint sgt tu tau ape.. $$ yup that's it. btw, next week ingat nk try stay klg lame for about a week. tgk dulu. if ok maybe 2 weeks. hehe..juz want some privacy wif daddy and chitom.

mixture of feelings

i'm on d bed.chitom is next to me.looking at him sleeps reminds me of his dad.i juz want to b wif chitom.if can i want him to b wif me wherever i go.i hate tis feelings.hopefully it wil leave soon.gosh i'm feeling hungry at d same time.i also felt sleepy.i also felt i need to express my milk coz i'm starting to feel a bit pain but to leave chitom alone.i also feel that i miss my love.see..all of that is mixture of feelings. *wishing 4 a better tomoro* mummy love chitom.

our 1st anniversary

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY!

alhamdulillah. 1st of all, i am very glad that we have been married for 1 yea. may more valuable years to come. now with chitom around bertambah bz la life saya. ehehehe.. now i am expressing my breast. tadi dh one side, skang one side lagi. nk dekat 8 oz. tp btul la kalo wat donno or i mean while surfing or reading lagi bnyk milk kuar. now expressing for storage. chitom still fully breastfeed with me. i am supporting those mommies who r breastfeeding their babies sbb susu ibu sgt berkhasiat. insya-Allah plan to bf chitom til 2 years. so i kena la be positive. ehehe.. bile stay kt umah sdiri chitom minum my milk from bottle kalo i'm at home i bf la chitom mummy yg chommel tu. pipi gebu. ala..la..la..tomei..tomei..geram nak gigit pipi die yg labuh tu. manja sgt.

yesterday, went for a movie with husband. adoi..dlm pantang tu lagi tapi dh 40 days. ahaha..tgk cite salt. tp take precautious steps jgk la. pkai socks. makan dulu. bawak cardigan. standby takut sejuk. pastu halfway teringat chitom. pastu gi minum jap teman hubby haa.. bantai nangis lak ingat chito. aii.. kalo dh keje camne ni? ingat chitom.. hahaha.. comel la mummy ni.

klah nnt i sambung..nk bfast. adios!

dilemma

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....................haishh.................camne ek?......................................................................................................
chitom..help mummy...

al-fatihah to my clasmate

my ex-clasmate passed away due to accident. OU. that's wat we called him back days at college. dulu time nk balik msia from dublin together la ngan die skali. masa tu i sorang girl. kemain jaga lagi. ye la kat tmpt orang. takut ape2 jd. tak sangka ok. pagi tadi hajar called ckp die meninggal. eh biar betul. ingat sakit ke. tapi accident. salam takziah to his family. i tanye mus then mus tekejut trus nangis. mus ckp baru ingt nak jupe die. hmm.. dh ajal sumone tu. kite takleh nak ckp ape kan. ape2 pun semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat. amin.

august

kita skrang dh di bulan lapan or august or ogos or agusto.. tggl lagi 4 bulan je b4 new year. pejam celik bangun tido makan minum mandi jalan2 bengang menyampah benci tak suke then dh smp la hari ni. today i sudah berpantang lebih kurang 35 days. i ade lebih kurang 30 days lagi b4 naik keje. hhmm.. mcm mane nk cope nnt is another thing to think. risau psl chitom. takpela.. selagi blum hbs cuti let me enjoy sepuas2 hati time cuti. balun la tido ckup2. tp asik tido je lenguh tau bontot. kalo ckp ngan chitom totot. haha..

last saturday chitom kena pegi injet for 1st month jab. hhm.. syian die nangis smp kejat. mesti sakit sgt. darah pun kuar sket. tgk rs nk nangis. pastu die that day meragam. tido nk kat pangku. tapi lucky bagi susu die nk minum. kembong pun ade sket. aishh mcm eja ikan kembong plak. i risau parents lak kat jakarta. tau la parent in law ade tp i stil nk my mum. masa ckp fon ngan my mum rasa nak nangis sgt smp suara dh shaky. tp i manage to control tak nak die kat sane worried. i kena bnyk sabar, bnyk doa so baby i sihat. i check his temperature worried kalo die demam tp alhamdulillah takde. smp next day die okay sket. dh berak bnyk. bole main sket2. dh senyum & ketawa blk. syg chitom so much.

semalam i gi shopping ngan husband. die belanja baju i n chitom. i rasa guilty tau sbb die gune duit die to spend. i kno it is limited. i tak mintak pun as long ckup untuk die lepaskan diri sendiri pun dh enuf. i was thinking tomoro to ask him to stay at klg lame. i worried his health. i'm fine. i bukannye kat umah org lain. kat umah mak mertua kan. umah mak die. umah my mum pun dekat aje. anytime parent bole dtg tgk i ngan chitom. biarla.. i dgn feelings i.

mlm tadi i ade tanye kat die sumthing tapi die ckp i mengarut. siang tadi i tanye tp.. biarla feelings i. juz another feelings yg i rasa takde pape. haiisshh..

nway back to chitom die hari ni tido sekejap2 je. apsal ar? dh hisap susu dh ganti pampers. ke kene bungkus balik. tp cian die. skang tgh panas kalo bungkus rimas plak die. die nk main. lucky ade mum in law. bole tlg tgkkan. ni pun i curi2 time nk blog.

skang ni husband i ade pasang his songs collections. hmm.. which some of the songs i like. n knowing him sume lagu yang die download tu mesti ade kena mengena ngan life die. that's how he expressed his feelings. i tau besides that die mesti la suka kat lagu/lyric/singer tu itself.

okaylah. nk tgk chitom jap. cayang chitom pipi gebu so much!