mixture of feelings

i'm on d bed.chitom is next to me.looking at him sleeps reminds me of his dad.i juz want to b wif chitom.if can i want him to b wif me wherever i go.i hate tis feelings.hopefully it wil leave soon.gosh i'm feeling hungry at d same time.i also felt sleepy.i also felt i need to express my milk coz i'm starting to feel a bit pain but to leave chitom alone.i also feel that i miss my love.see..all of that is mixture of feelings. *wishing 4 a better tomoro* mummy love chitom.