alicia keys

singing to *no one* *no one* * no oneeee*.. lalalalala..hari ni sgt happy balik umah awal. anyways, balik lagi awal compared to my plan sbb satu ofis blacked out. hahaha.. lucky most of the worksheets dah save. by the way, i nak gi ke dapur corner kejap lagi. nak mamam. nak join. ehh..hari ni cam baru perasan yg my countdown days tinggal 161 days. last time i saw was like 167 days. eh..bile masa plak jalan 6 hari ni. ishh..ishh.. aarrgghhh..bukan tensen tapi terkejut n wat.. lagi roughly 160 days. divided by 30 so round 5 months lagi. hmm.. hmm.. macam2 feelings ade. happy of course, waiting for it, sad, sebak and macam2 la.

stress & de-motivated

that's what i am facing at the moment with my job. soooo damn sakit kepala. pening n seriously no mood ok. aarrgghh.. even my superior pun tanye why lemah longlai je. i dah ckp apsal ngan people here. what are their probs. hmm.. so many political issues. menyampah! i mmg tak tahan especially on tuesday. mmg berangin je. pastu my time banyak wasted gi meeting gi meeting gi meeting.. urrgghh... dh tau urgent pastu nak suruh orang attend meeting jgk. pull my concentration and efficiency. dh la malas nak pk. baik i pk bout my hubby aka darling aka sayang. lagi sweet and soooo sweet. ;)

mm..

was searching n googling bout the countdown timer animated version tapi tak jumpa yg fit to my page. if yg i suke pun tak muat. hhmm..benci la..

purpose

i am at home currently. planning to go to ofis to work but tak jadi coz ade hal sket. but i have to woke up quite early to drop the key plus i need to wake my bro and dearest dear coz both of them got exam today. gud luck to both of u. may u guys success. my tummy wasn't that right these few days. quite upset la. need to control on the hot hot n pedas pedas food so perut i tak sakit. then i got 'mata ikan' quite besar smp kat tonsil la rasanye. but today n yesterday i dah letak garam. fuh! pedihnye tak terkata. mmg terkeluar la air mata. then mum ckp maybe sbb badan i panas. that's y sakit perut nak buang air and ade ulcer. mum suruh minum banyak air. tgk la kat luar tu. huuisshh.. perit kulit tau. bile kat ofis tak rasa sangat sbb lunch pun kat dalam. if kluar pun bukannye jauh. skang nak naik keta tak larat. sbb takde tinted and air cond keta panas. imagine orang yang naik motor or takde kenderaan langsung. kena naik bas tunggu bas fuuhh.. shud be thankful of what i have right.
last thursday i went to survey mak andam kak midah kat klang. total for both side is round 8k. our mum ckp mahal. my sis ckp murah. nak tanye sape lagi ni. tapi package yang die bagi tu not bad la. i kind of suke sbb penah wat make up with her before. tapi nak kena survey lagi la. petang ni maybe jadi kot. tunggu dearest dear habis exam around 4.30pm then he'll pick me up to go to the mak andam shop. to survey.
last nite i gi makan kat burger king. i took the single mushroom burger set. kenyang. pastu spend some time with dearest dear. rindu die sgt. tak tau la die rindu i ke tak. semalam kan i was a bit merajuk pastu sampai petang baru he pujuk me. i call la kan after lunch nak tanye wat pe dh makan tak gi friday prayer ke? pastu die cam mm..mm..bz la kan. then azrul kat blakang bising2 plak. maybe he intend to gurau tapi i cam tak suke la. then langsung after that malas nak call or sms. nak majuk. bz kan myself. tapi mmg semalam pun bz. ceo suke last2 minute tambah extra report nak masuk dlm bod papers. lucky i tak balik lagi. hmm.. this morning i makan roti canai for breakfast. nyau tak berus gigi kan.*ahaks* makan roti telur n teh tarik. nyum! nyum! hahaha.. pastu dropped him off at padang. nak main bola. isshh.. dah gelap dh adik aku ni. main je keje die. hopefully die tau nak split his time between studies and main2.
dearest dear juz called. he br habis the morning session punye exam. the next session starts at 2.15pm. wished him all the best. i ni dh ngantuk plak. tapi ingat nak layan dvd kejap. oklah. nnt i update lagi ye.

[talking bout wedding, i borak ngan mum, ma..lagi 5 bulan je nak kawin, mum ckp haa.. baguslah.. lps ni ade orang nak teman gi mane2..]

well..well..

february is going to over soon. and what i am left like 5 monthss... 5 months baby.. suddenly i'm back to reality. ehh... where am i before.. huh?!

V-A-L-E-N-T-I-N-E-S D-A-Y

Happy Valentine's Day!! May not celebrating it. to those celebrating it have fun and by the way, it should always be Valentine's Day for you and your partner for 365 days.

hectic

i was very bz and hectic through out the whole week. the budgeted that i submitted on 23rd jan got some amendments to do as instructed by boss. on the first meeting we got bang by him very bad until like evry questions we can't answer. and by the way, before we finish our answer he already came out with another question. haisshh!! the last meeting we haad he is in good mood and he is okay with it. cuma a bit bengang bile he marah ckp apsl income for year 2009 only rm3.6mil. tak make sense. so sharon ckp la. that is what u want. previously we had rm3.8mil tapi u suruh reduce then he diam n ohhh ok takpe takpe. get back to rm3.8mil. pastu yang lain2 tu settle. we all prepared ourselves with all the questions takut kena bang lagi. n the meeting took like bout 45 min. pastu balik rest kejap before i proceed with the group's system. and finally before 6.45pm managed to send the finalisation version to the asst mgr.

yesterday i was on leave. supposedly cuti sebab nak pegi tgk konsert rihanna tapi konsert tu kan postponed. sebab she gaduh with her bf. pastu ingat nak retract cuti balik. tapi takyah la. juz cuti. rest myself. tapi semalam tak rest sgt pun. i was damn tensed. bout the wedding loan la. dh tanye banyak bank n diorang mostly ckp max 5 or 6 times from ur basic salary. i can't get from bank rakyat. i dont have a potongan gaji. hhmm... pening la. pastu came by faiz's office. cried. if i were thinking to lepaskan myself, maybe dh lepas tapi i wanted to help faiz as well. kesian die. i know that he wants to get married when he is 30 years old. so, when he is getting married now, i juz rasa i am so sorry and guilty sbb his plans have been changed. but he alwiz said no la. tu kan jodoh. Tuhan dah set macam tu. sometimes i juz can't help it feeling that way. macam2 la dalam my head currently. ape yg bengong lagi, (i shouldn't think like this).. maybe he is destined to be with somebody else. might be his true love. i am not. aarrgghh!!.ape ni. it's not good ok. sorry..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! i shouldn't think like that. i should be happy. i am getting married soon. with the man that i always want to be with which my heart also says so. do i love him? if i say no, i am lying to myself. yeahh.. i do love him. infact very much. insya-Allah there'll be a way. for us to solve the $$ problem.