raya..raya..

raya eve n i'm still at ofis. came in quite late. but nvm, later going home at 3pm. dearest sexiest hottest hubby will come n fetch me at ofis. syian die. rasa cam menyusahkan plak. thnx btw. love him damn much. anyway, tonite 12am will be a special call that i'm going to make. wanna know wat.. stay tuned to the next post.

TAKING THIS OPPORTUNITY TO WISH EVERYONE

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI,
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

2 more days for raya

yaay! i'm happy.. at first i dun think i haf the feelings for beraya but after a while yaay! eventhough with so many things happened i'm glad n thankful coz i managed to celebrate this wonderful month of aidilfitri with my loved ones. so many hands to salam due to all the sins i've done. sometimes when i think back, i dunno la. i may not be a perfect person n i know i've done many sinful things.. yelled to parents.. betrayed loved one..lying.. cheh! sungguh tak suke. i dh janji ngan diri sendiri to improve on myself. insya-Allah. skang ni pun tgh nak catch n fulfill the 5 most important rukun in islam. insya-Allah boleh.
last saturday had to come to work. bout the tanco thingy. stayed till around 3 to key in those info get from additional boxes. i was emotionally breakdown (biase la kan) sbb kena keje weekend, but then it went ok coz my so-hot-sexy fiancee came to fetch me at ofis. then we went jalan2 at klcc b4 we went back to our favoritessssssssssss place to buka puasa. =) i didn't buy anything. only change my watch strap. finally after few months (i guess it's already years since i last wear a watch) get back to skin strap. pusing2 .. last2 beli kuih raya. i bought kuih dahlia n keropok ikan yg dipuntal panjang2. yummy... yummy... so delicous n i'm like what...so hungry at the moment. today lepas sahur i takde minum milo coz my throat doesn't feel syok. so i decided to only drink air putih. by the way nak raya dah. hopefully it's getting better. now face dh bnyk pimples naik. sakit la. maybe it's hot then tak minum air sbb puasa. alhamdulillah sepanjang berpuasa takde la sakit ape. juz period pain the other day.
back to shopping stories. semalam i dah beli kebaya nyonya setelah meround hampir 2 jam. bengang je adek-adek ku. syian depa. hahaha.. color black n purple. cam eh btul ke nak pakai ni. then balik umah. tertido smp la buka puasa. pastu lepas kemas2 cleaned up amek hubby gi plak jln taiping. bro nk tgk kasut n seluar. i bought brooch for myself nak pakai ngan kebaya nanti. syok nye. hopefully i will look pretty. hehehe... ;)
today not many ppl at work. coz many of them dah balik kampung. tinggal a few of us je lagi. okaylah.. time to go.. chow!

lapar

i'm hungry but erpp.. biasye nih... mmg la lapar. sebab puasa. sabar sabar ok. hehehe.. kat ofis time break ni. tgh relax while dgr lagu raya kat radio ofismate seblh. so many things so many things i wanted to share but maybe in the next topic or post coz now is not the right time for me to do so. chiow!

testing

testing at office. boleh lak log in but tak tau boleh ke tak. takpe.. takpe..test dulu.

silence is golden

that can be true. coz too much words blurted out can create uncomfortableness to others or even hurt them. but too much silence can create a negative impact to herself/himself. evrything must be in a moderate mode. so we can live our lives on balancing. not just tyres need balancing. our lives need that too. i'm just done with sahur. won't be sleeping coz i don't want to be late for work. i guess i already had enuf sleep yesterday. will be ironing my clothes than off to work.

i miss my mum la... ma, btul ke ape yg shima buat sekarang ni?

buka puasa time *i'm totally full*

can't imagine how much i ate for buka puasa semalam. so damn kenyang. mula2 i ate spagethi with tomato sauce. stop n rest b4 i continue to eat nasi putih with lauk ayam + daging masak kurma, ikan masak assam n mm.. tak ingat lauk ape lagi. pastu makan daging bakar then ice cream, then some puffs n puddings, not forgetting the pudding. then air sirap then teh tarik then warm water. gosshhh! banyaknye aku makan. makin gemuk la aku ni. hari tu baru timbang berat n it's less than 50kg by 1 kg only. that means 49kg la. hahaha.. satu kilo je kurang pun nak kecoh.. hahaha... i think might be it should be my ideal weight skang ni. so have to maintain this weight til married. talking bout married, already faxed those registration of kursus kahwin last week. we've chosen the dates in november. kena update dlm calendar handphone. listening to some songs at the moment. hari ni pagi tadi makan roti cicah air milo. then makan nasi lauk kuah lontong. pastu makan nasi ayam. then dinner makan nasi n daging masak merah. tadi kaki kiri n kanan terasa sgt2 lenguh. so i sapu minyak panas then terdozed off. lega la rasa kaki. malam kang nak pkai socks then nk tido. so blh rasa cam baby...at least kaki i tak rasa lenguh or cramp bile tido mlm kang. missed my beloved. does he miss me too?

today was pretty hot la. lucky stil not fasting but most probably esok will do. dah do d necessary cleaned up. hehehe =) this week ade 2 kali kena buka puasa kat ofis la. mmg sungguh boring. tak syok. because of the fal-tanco case la. smp that day, i'm emotional breakdown. mmg nekad nak cari kerja lain. talking bout work, don really happy with the job i'm doing at the moment. high pay but i'm stressed. sometimes smp malas nak angkat tepon. kring..kring.. at the other end. tapi if tak angkat nnt ade urgent things to do. hhmmm... if ckp kat orang psl i nye stress ni sure orang lain pun akan ckp "la.. cam die sorang je tgh stress" hhmm.. skang dh nampak la my current department boss ni playing politics at work and i don't think it is a good n healthy environment. but as far as i'm concern and advice by close ppl, they said tak yah nak involve involve in office politics ni. currently wat i'm doing is datang keje, kat ofis buat keje then habis keje kluar ofis dah takde masa nak pk psl keje kat ofis tu lagi. kalo do work if ppl tak appreciate buang masa je kan.

tadi baru tgk fon bil. then, cam alamk banyak nye fon bil nak kena bayar. maybe i kena kurangkan call la lps ni. to everyone.. i guess so. in that case i can help to reduce the cost bear by him. coz i see he is bearing too many costs at the moment.

went to service my pwecious ah-hon. bunyi die dh okay. not that bising. sometimes so worried dgn condition keta yg tak menentu. dah la hari2 travel gune keta tu. i kena make sure the condition is tip top. sbb if pk i travel pagi 1 n half hours balik pun around that. total 3 jam dlm keta. nak tinted plak. hhmm.. syian ah-hon. nnt ade extra $ nak gi color body keta tu balik. so die nampak cam baru. baru pk nak tuka keta. so at least masa return balik kat dad, it is in proper condition.

hmm.. y suddenly perut i rasa tak syok ni =( nak kapuk somebody but that somebody tgh sibuk. wonder wat is he up to. kalo call cam sibuk je. maybe he tgh discuss psl work. malas nk pk bukan2. trust his words of watever he says.

tadi talked with mus, macam2 la. pasal girls la. aduiihh... so many things in life. sometimes ade rasa nak nangis. wishing for a happy life til end of my life. insya-Allah. praying hard n doa banyak2 to teguhkan iman i. insya-Allah. i need some peacefullness. looking for it. the new love that i've mentioned earlier. hoping that my parents is in healthy condition. and also my family.

*lalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalala...lalalalala....lalalalala...lalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalala*

talking bout my radhi n fay. they dah semakin besar. radhi dh potong rambut pendek tapi sbb muke die nmpk soft. he looked so chommel.. ade iras2 girl jgk. but i alwiz told him, abang boy bukan girl. boys pkai jam, belt, topi. pastu fay skang dh makin riuh mulut die. jerit2 je. bising tapi i happy tgk die. skang dh pandai gelak n senyum. tadi nak snap gambar siap ckp adik fay smile, so there she was smiling so big hehehe.. nmpk gigi atas 2 bawah 2. nnt i trf n post k. so cute. sekarang ni i alwiz ade rase tak sabarnye nak ade babies. cute n adorable. nak hug, nak kiss, nak give all of my love kat my babies [precious one] nak sayang til end of my life. so bile die besar, they got full love from me n their daddy =) of course need guidance from both parents on how to raise kids. sama2 nak tgk they membesar depan mata, pegi tadika, masuk primary school, then secondary school, colleges and then time for them to work n get married. by that time mesti teringat time masa i nak kawin. how my parents so bz with all the preparations. if boleh n dipanjangkan umur for both parent so they dapat tgk their cucu kawin. n wishing that my parent sihat seadanye til end of their life. they r getting older nowadays. dad is going to retire soon. tgh pk camne nak bagi pocket $ kat both parent. insya-Allah boleh nanti. be positive.

thinking of downloading more songs but can't think of a song at the moment. at the same time tgh tgk tv cerekarama psl this guy yg menderhakan kat mak die. tak sempat nak mintak ampun. terasa macam i ni mmg la banyak dosa kat my parent. sbb dlm cite tu die nak tanam keranda tapi takleh nak masuk. dh 3 kali gali then the father tak nak ampunkan dosa coz die pukul mak die. tapi dh lps ustaz tu nasihat the father pun ampunkan dosa anak die and keranda tu blh ditanam. kena mintak ampun kat parent. that's why they say, hidup takkan tenteram if tak dpt redha from parent. * a mother's heart is so sensitive* sedih la. to everyone that has still a person name MOTHER in this world, love your mother til end of her life. coz syurga itu terletak di bawah tapak kaki-ibu.

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hhmmm... typing without really knowing of wat to say. "tapi bukan aku" wat does that sentence means? listening to the song n reading the lyrics. sometimes juz wonder how people come out with such a great art like songs composing or lyrics writing. but for me, i guess i am more keen to know the exact meaning of those words written. it could be the experience that the writer had experienced, or maybe the imagination of the writer or maybe what the writer is hoping he/she will get. wonder where do they get the ideas. it could be great. if i can even write one. perhaps i could try someday. juz see how good am i at writing. well, now i'm not that used to reading english story books like before. dunno where does that interest goes to. now sometimes i wonder where does all my interest goes to. missing in action? MIA.. hahaha... talking bout my interest. so many things. guess one of the biggest barrier is $. when i'm short of $, i tend to think of not spending scared that towards end of the month, i dun have enuf to eat. with oil prices not static and those market prices keep increasing, $ need to be save. with planning of getting married in hand next year. so much $ to be spent. but with God's will, there's a way n it juz that we dont have to stop earning. oohh..cut the topic of $ or else i won't be finishing talking bout it. my interest? lots lots lots. i like reading. yeah! that's true but now wher does that interest goes to. last novel i read was like 4 months ago about a love story. guess it's time for me to re-visit the rent-a-book shop to rent those novels or any kind of books that is in my interest. secondly, i suke tgk tv. tapi now, wher does that interest go to? wishing that after work, get home, bath, dinner get on the bed n sleep. even though the nite is long til the next morning. when i woke up the next day, oohh ruginye i tido lelame semlm coz i don get to see the night passed by. it should be wonderful. yeah!.. this year is the 2nd year i'm working. sometimes stil wonder ape lagi yg i cari dlm life i ni? a lot of things. will update the list kat my blog so when i view it everyday, i know it is achievable. some people wil take some time away for themselves by going for holidays. i mmg have that plans in mind but i dunno when can i get the chance to go holidaying. maybe alone could be nice kot. depends ler. hhmm...going on. i like watching movies, going for bowling. tapi nak pegi ngan sape? maybe not allowed to go with frens. brothers with their own plans. tuition, lepaking with frens, movies with their frens. hhmmm... life still must go on no matter what. i'm getting sleepier. but this morning i woke up quite late. ard 7.30am haha n i enter the ofis at 9.30am. wah so late tapi i go home at 6pm. ting tong ting tong. nite!

time is running short

suddenly i felt so nervous. our wedding will be few months away n i haven't tot of any colors nor an plans for the wedding yet. kursus kahwin blum pegi lagi ni. oohh..kusut kusut. yangg..nak diskusi ngan u la. hmm..bnyk benda lagi ni. tapi skang tgh focus nak habiskan bulan pose yang mulia ni. pastu baru nak focus to that. oosshh.. banyak benda ni. camne.. sabar sabar. dalam kelam kabut ni ade rasa syok kan. the preparation n everything. insya-Allah.

blurting

feels like talking lagi but somethings are meant to be unexplained. coz it will be explanaible by itself. listening to few songs. thinking bout future. makes me scared, wonder how it will be. praying hard to God that everything is going to be fine. insya-Allah. hoping for His forgiveness and also blessings to proceed with lives. looking for some peacefullness.

uncomfortableness

about a week since i last blog. wasn't feel right at the moment. period pain. so i'm not fasting. nnt kena ganti. talking bout ganti puasa, i sendiri tak sure how many days kena ganti since yg last dulu. but the one when i was at dublin i dh habis ganti. syok plak sbb time buka puasa awal. hehe.. then yesterday went for some time spending with beloved darling. ate pizza for breakfasting. went home ard 11.30pm. the day before went to see the make-up bag. syok.. took the one in black bag. looking very exclusive. thanks a lot.
today went to the ofis. since morning. kena settle work on toot toot.. geram je. ingat dah setel. no need to come to work today. tapi at last kena gak. dahla sakit perut gile giler. rasa nak sepak sepak je orang tau. then had lunch with hubby *wink*wink* hubby tak fasting eh? sbb i tak fasting. hehehe.. we tapau mcd. i makan bubur ayam. he suapkan for me. thanks.

today's weather

i bet everyone should know that the weather here is currently up n down. the cold that i'm facing at the moment remind me of when i used to leave in europe. the wind that blows make me feel uncomfortable. together with its driness of skin that needs to apply lotion. i even had a though yesterday, eh..my country will be facing snow soon izzit? so weird. many ppl said that the world is coming to its end. and thinking of it. it is qada' n qadar. sometimes i'm scared. a lot of sins i've done. to ask His forgiveness. i'm really scared.
but this phenomena is also part of human being's doing. with open burning. chopping down big trees to give way to development and to smaller down the river. so many things happened to our beloved world. to help save our world is to reduce the usage of paper. if possible, it's better to use recycle paper. save trees from being cutting down. if one ppl does that it may not help but imagine if it is being practise by whole world sure can help save our trees and also help to save our WORLD..green for environment. love green for our future children.

left my hp in faiz's car

yerpp.. last friday we went to berbuka puasa with some of his friends at old town white coffee. i ordered prawn mee. quite pedas. mee habis. kuah ade sket lagi. hubby ate dry curry mee. ard 9 gerak balik. quite sleepy. dh ting tong. then smp lupe nk check brg b4 kuar from keta. hhmm.. hp tertinggal kat passenger seat dlm pocket tu. hahaha... funny..rasa bengong kejap bile takde hp sbb kena gune house fon. macam style dulu2 time takde hp. kak yan ckp "eh tau tak skang hp tu mcm nyawa tau, kalo tgh travel takde hp, dangerous k" hehehe... tak kesa la psl tu. lucky fon rumah dh blh gune. 1 day je. wondering how hubby's one took few days to reconnect. but finally dh dpt gune juz now his fon line is not working properly. his mum said kena camtu lps ade petir that day. skang i tggl sorang ngan parent. bro kuar. sis pun kuar. hari ni nak buka pose ape ar? hhmm.. takde ideas la. nak buat ayam mayo tapi oven takde. camne nak bakar. hhmm.. dh lama tak masak. jeles lak dgr hubby skang tgh mood nak masak je. that day he buat roti john. that nite, after trawih went to his house nak taste n yummy delicious. yummy nyer.. saye dah lapar ni.. nnt dh get married nak gilir2 la masak. pastu tuka recipe eh. hehehe... today hubby plan nak buat ayam mayo. his grandma is coming down from kampung.
yesterday nite buka puasa kat yong tau foo. mula2 ingat makan yong tau foo la i mean the putih2, tauhu, kuih2 die tapi lain la kat situ. die cam kena order satu dish pastu kalo nak boleh makan ngan nasi. kenyang giler. it was raining yesterday. sejuk giler. kat umah kak yan masa nak balik.. uiisshhh sejuk giler dgn angin dgn sejuk. hubby ckp the weather last nite smp 18 degrees. giler sejuk. rasa so uncomfortable. balik je cleaned up, pakai vicks tapi tak rasa panas sgt maybe sbb dada i dh sejuk. ade flam. pastu pakai socks dgr lagu then tido. today bgn sahur quite early. dlm kul 4.45am. by 5.10am dh setel. borak jap ngan hubby pastu tido balik.
planning for my wedding--> nak setel gi kursus kahwin dulu.
oh forgot to update. semalam gi ofis hubby. cantik nye. dh masuk carpet n aircond. so nyaman, cosy n rasa nak tido. best shangat best shangat...hehehe =D congrats dear on new improvement towards ur business. will alwiz pray for ur successness..

rainy day

today i masuk ofis lambat tapi balik awal. hehehe... truk gak. tadi dh discus ngan superior on my raya leave. i'm taking 1 day after n 1 day b4 raya. hmm.. susah ar nak apply leave sbb bukannye dpt leave on for 1 whole year. trus je 21 days like that. die kena as u work as u earn. leceh la camtu. if plan cuti lame, mmg takleh la kan. hhmmmmm.. arrgghh lupe kan pasal work. hubby pun ckp bile siang i ni sedih, nak nangis, rushing tapi bile mlm my voice very calming. eceh ceh.. perasan. masuk bakul angkat sendiri. hehehe... =D

today buka puasa i, mum, farid n bob je. dad ade keje kat luar. meriah meja kitorang. mcm2 lauk n kuih ade. alhamdulillah. i amik 3 jenis lauk je. jap gi nak gi makan kuih plak.

update..my house telephone dh kena potong. sbb i byr hari tu tak ckup 50% so kena bar. hmm.. dh call the customer service. i dah buat the balance payment. tak sure bile boleh sambung. esok i nak kena call balik telekom ckp i dh byr. let see how long the will take. hubby nye house tak sambung2 lagi skang. syian die...

*daddy* *mummy*

3rd day fasting

let me tell ya a storie of mine which i believe could make ya laugh. haha.. no kidding. maybe it's not funny for ya but for me after thinking of it.. hahaha..hahaha...

yesterday 2nd day puasa n first time puasa kat new ofis. masuk awal la kan. then boleh balik kul 5pm. then, masa nak balik boss ckp nak tgk figure p&l for the month of aug. so i cpt2 la do the double entries. last2 dh siap. pastu pass for approvals. then, nak tanye i psl this client yg nak kena go under litigation ke ape ke benda ntah. then, i dh bagi the best figure as wat i can get from the listing. then die tanye tanye lagi. i dh ckp alamak i nak balik ni. takut tak sempat. last last 5.45pm i chow. roughly almost 6pm la. then stuck kat jam for like 2 hours eh. i smp umah teka pkul brape. 7.35pm eh after orang dh buka puasa. hubby pun sibuk2 nak buka dah. i call pastu cam tak layan je. hmm... then i dh rs sebak sad then trus cry. aahh..cry babe.. CRY...... C-R-Y syian i kan. smp umah je.. trus basuh muka n tangan then trus buka puasa. bros gelak kan aje i. mus pun gelak kan i. tringat time kat dublin. bulan pose gak. tetibe nangis sbb tasha terkepak kaki spec. hehehehehe.. then tasha belanja cookies. hehehehe... hhmmm...=( wat a experience. pastu dgn havoc n hectic kat ofis. uiisshhh..sakit kepala i camni. nasib baik i sabar. i dh bnyk kluar tears kat this new place. environment not really. more on the ppl's atittude and work load yg ntah pape ntah. then how to ubat diri sendiri is juz ckp *sabar*sabar*

pastu today hoping for a better day compared to yesterday. jln pagi jam truk padahal kluar awal. tadi ckp ngan kakak ofismate. she said maybe sbb bulan pose. evrybody is driving sbb senang nak travel balik awal, pegi pasar nak buka pose. hari ni quite hectic. pastu towards 4pm ade keje baru masuk. hmm... geram la ni. cpt2 siapkan. then, ard 5.15 dh balik. b4 balik fon atas meja berdering dering tapi gue malas nak angkat. nnt ade je yg call asking for work padahal dh state ckp nak balik time bulan pose kul 5pm kan. so.. i pun angkat kaki la. yang syok, alhamdulillah jalan quite clear. smp federal kul 6 camtu. then zoom smp rumah. roughly tak laju sgt. maybe ard 80km/h. smp hse ard 7 sbb stop gi beli kuih pulut panggang n murtabak. balik tu amik farid kat bus stop, mandi2 then buka pose ramai2. mum masak rendang ayam. yummyy.. semua orang makan banyak hari ni. syok n happy. pastu cleaned up then gi terawih ngan mum. balik lepak atas katil then online.. hhmm..cam dh ngantuk tapi ade keje sket nak buat. as usual hoping for a better day tomorrow.

HAPPY RAMADHAN!!

slamat berpuasa! doa so sihat seadanye. to hubby, slamat berpuasa! really happy got another chance to celebrate this wonderful month together.

juz got back from nenek's house. hari ni melepek je kat umah. tido je keje. hahaha.. ape la i ni. pastu ard 5.30pm baru mandi. bwk bros jejalan beli roti john. hari hujan. quite sejuk. alhamdulillah first day went well.