well.. it's 30.4.08 last day of the month. so i'll be bz again with month end closing, month end reports n everything month end. this time round kena siapkan by the datelines we have decided. yesterday, someone from am called asking me to come for an interview. it's with HR. most prob bout salary. it will be next tuesday. wish me luck. so i kena prepare myself mentally n physically. kena siapkan all the documents by this weekend. plus passport sized photos skali. 2 keping. for wat ar? takpela siapkan je la. sumtimes i terwonder sengsorang. wat i'm doing currently ni btul ke tak? am i doing the rite thing? rasa cam malas nak pindah2 sbb i dh rs comfortable with the area. it's quite convenient to get here. nak makan, jln tak jam sgt. is juz that the $ yg buat i pk to find other job jgk. tapi selain tu yang i rasa i kena moved on is bcoz of that incident yg happened to me sometime ago. hhhmmmmm........hhhmmmm........hhhmmmm....
yesterday, after work i gi sri kota nak cari susu low fat + chicken wings. i cooked rice, sardine, telur mata kerbau and fried crispy chicken. i bought the serbuk from the store. so hubby ckp sedap. he said nak ratah ayam so i pk if goreng biase je cam tak syok, y not i beli the serbuk. try on my own. tapi masa nak buka plastic serbuk tu kan. the thing splash to my face. masuk mata sket la. aduh! pedih ok. cpt2 masuk bilik air then cuci mata. my left eye. roughly i habis cooked 1 hour later. i pastu mandi... then *tup*tup* tgk hubby sudah pulang. hehe... then we all dine together. syoknye.. hehe.. then i praised myself "sedapnye i masak" masuk bakul angkat sendiri. then, tgk hubby bertukang pasang jam dinding yg we all beli kat bukit tinggi that day. jam die unik la. nnt i post pic ok. tapi the jarum a bit tak betul. bile die past number 9, jarum saat tu ticking at the same spot. even this morning i woke up pun same jgk. dunno y. geram pun ade jgk. nnt kena check kat kedai jam la cam tu. bengang sket la.
this morning, i ade rasa tak tenteram sket. bout a girl that he is seeing currently. he said he loved her same as me. coz i read his sms to n fro that girl. tu la sape suruh baca lagi. but is just that i'm curious nak tau. but about 2 hours later, he called me confessing wat is actually inside his heart. how he actually handle things. i'm like terharu with wat he said. he loves me damn much ok. how could i? how could i did that to him? how could i? hmmm....i nak cry tadi. tapi i control myself. now i realised how much he actually loves me. yang.. in return i will love u with all of my heart n most important thing is to care four our baby til end of my life.
LOVE U MUCH DEAR!
: MY MARRIAGE :
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
singing to songs
my mood today? ok. i rasa happy. last nite we all tgk citer "LOVE" "CINTA" will be Malaysian version. it is Indon's version. but the story really terkena kat i ok. wat the married couple faced. the wife had an affair with another guy. n the husband sooo kesian.. the daughter kesian also. i cried tau. i realised benda tu soooo stupid. i tak nak my husband and anak faced that kind of situation. kena lived separately. if nak ikut mum duduk ngan mum, if not duduk ngan dad. nak improve myself. nak jaga myself so it will not happen again. i cried la. hopefully hubby tak perasan. pastu.. LOVE actually means a lot. with love, it can change people's life for better or for worse. NO ONE IN THIS WORLD DOESN'T WANT TO BE LOVED AND BEING LOVED. so when we have it, take care of it like wat Alicia Keys said "love me like this is the last time u see me" ohh.. i'm really touched. i teringat k movie tu. don't play with heart n emotion nnt diri sendiri yang susah.
semalam masa dinner, i told him that i wonder sape dlm heart die tapi he said u tak kenal i sape lagi. u yang inside my heart. he had made his decision n it is me that he chosed. i terharu ok. nak nangis. nak cry. sumer ade. talking bout jealousy, a topic that he brought up. OF COURSE i akan rasa jealous.. benda tu mmg ade. i rasa my jealousy teruk jgk ok. tapi i remember mum die ckp jgn terlampau over jealousy, nnt merana diri sendiri. yanngg... u ni swwwweeeeettttt la..
juz had lunch. i makan ngan k.zila, husna n sya. kenyang la. k.zila sakit perut ckp angin. so she cannot finished her food. tadi i'm trying to observe her. y is she talking like that. y is she like to stare at ppl atas bawah. i wonder. coz my other lunch mate (kak maria) pun ade mention jgk. tapi, being natural, it's better not for me to cakap or menokok tambah ape yg orang lain kutuk2. sumtimes malas la nak dgr sumer gossip gossip ni. better i gi makan sorang je kan. tapau then makan at my place.
semalam kak maziah called, she said she baru nak send memo to her boss. if they accept, most prob i kena gi second interviu with HR regarding salary. and if they want me cepat, kak maziah said they are willing to pay to current company. tapi selagi blum ade confirmation, i will not tender any resignation. i pray kat God semoga murahkan rezeki. and thanks to everyone in this place that help me a lot.
to hubby, i tau u tgh work hard sekarang. tapi make sure health u jaga. i tgk sekarang ni banyak balik u smoke. batuk u tu, on n off. pastu skang ni kita dh cpt penat. guess so lacking of exercise. so, lps ni nk tanamkan dlm diri untuk exercise. maybe jogging once a week. that shud be ok i guess. take care of urself. love u alwiz. be mine...
semalam masa dinner, i told him that i wonder sape dlm heart die tapi he said u tak kenal i sape lagi. u yang inside my heart. he had made his decision n it is me that he chosed. i terharu ok. nak nangis. nak cry. sumer ade. talking bout jealousy, a topic that he brought up. OF COURSE i akan rasa jealous.. benda tu mmg ade. i rasa my jealousy teruk jgk ok. tapi i remember mum die ckp jgn terlampau over jealousy, nnt merana diri sendiri. yanngg... u ni swwwweeeeettttt la..
juz had lunch. i makan ngan k.zila, husna n sya. kenyang la. k.zila sakit perut ckp angin. so she cannot finished her food. tadi i'm trying to observe her. y is she talking like that. y is she like to stare at ppl atas bawah. i wonder. coz my other lunch mate (kak maria) pun ade mention jgk. tapi, being natural, it's better not for me to cakap or menokok tambah ape yg orang lain kutuk2. sumtimes malas la nak dgr sumer gossip gossip ni. better i gi makan sorang je kan. tapau then makan at my place.
semalam kak maziah called, she said she baru nak send memo to her boss. if they accept, most prob i kena gi second interviu with HR regarding salary. and if they want me cepat, kak maziah said they are willing to pay to current company. tapi selagi blum ade confirmation, i will not tender any resignation. i pray kat God semoga murahkan rezeki. and thanks to everyone in this place that help me a lot.
to hubby, i tau u tgh work hard sekarang. tapi make sure health u jaga. i tgk sekarang ni banyak balik u smoke. batuk u tu, on n off. pastu skang ni kita dh cpt penat. guess so lacking of exercise. so, lps ni nk tanamkan dlm diri untuk exercise. maybe jogging once a week. that shud be ok i guess. take care of urself. love u alwiz. be mine...
Monday, April 28, 2008
monday blues
haha.. not that blue la coz hari ni i pakai baju warna biru. the punjab style. i like it la. the colour. it's like cerah n really outstanding. i feel happy when i'm wearing this clothes. plus pagi tadi tgk elmo yg comel tu. sooo... merah. love him too. <-- hubby, if u baca ni (love him too is for my elmo in the car) juz got back from lunch. kenyang la. alhamdulillah.
semalam i tak tenteram tau. i takleh nak pray sbb i period. wat i did was to amik air semayang, then juz doa kat Tuhan, tenteram kan hati ku ini. tenangkan hatiku ini dan semoga hidup ku diberkatiNya. Amin.
yangg.....u r sooooooooo sweet..
semalam i tak tenteram tau. i takleh nak pray sbb i period. wat i did was to amik air semayang, then juz doa kat Tuhan, tenteram kan hati ku ini. tenangkan hatiku ini dan semoga hidup ku diberkatiNya. Amin.
yangg.....u r sooooooooo sweet..
Sunday, April 27, 2008
27.04.2008
27th apr 2008. 1 more month is our 8th anniversary. dah lame we all kawan sebenarnye. actually i'm kind of nervous now. it's like i'm new to him. there's a lot for me to learn about him. now i rasa cam for the past 7 years i don't really take the opportunity to discover more bout him. sumtimes wonder nak buat ape ar? tapi tu i kena pk sendiri la. camne nak tackle, camne nak win his heart back, camne nak tau die suka ape, tak suke ape. hopefully wat ever happened in my life, i will take it as a big lesson for me in the future. he is soooo sweet la. rasa so stupid now ok. he is so kind. i nak shower him with my love. i'm stil trying to change myself and to improve myself. now i rasa a bit mature la. the way i think.
one think now after all of this happened, i realised one thing that man whenever they meet up it's not really or basically nonsense talk but it's more to future generation. how to generate more income. previously i was like aduh! tak yah la nak kuar! aik nak kuar kuar kuar! takleh duk umah ke, cam tak suke je duk umah ckp fon ngan i. tapi bile i pk.. better la die kuar ngan his frens, nway bukannye buat perangai tah pape tah but they discussed something for future. rather than duk umah ckp fon kosong ngan i, spend like 2 3 hours.. rasa cam takde benefit pun kat situ. huisshh.. besar okay responsibility guys ni. nak built family, nak cari $$. we as woman kena know how to play our part. if takleh nak contribute in that idea, least we can do is to support him from the back during ups and downs and the most important thing is to take care of ourself. our pride n dignity. paling penting ok.
to my sayang. thanks for everything. i tau that day u baca blog i kan. i rasa cam malu la. shy shy sbb u baca ape yang i tulis sumer. that's wat i rasa la. yang.. nak kapuk u.. yang.. if u ter baca this post.. i nak tanye.. u sayang i tak? tak pretend? how much? why u treat i so nice cam ni? u miss me tak? i rasa terharu ok. nak hug u la.
yesterday, i nye trial exam. i tak banyak la study but i did sket la. tapi as usual masa time exam tu a bit like blur. tak tau nak tulis ape. i jawab je ape yg i tau. i managed to answer all three questions tapi tu la. i kena brushed on my time management during exam. nanti tak cukup time. tangan i lenguh2 k. jawab question. sbb dah lame tak tulis so bile tulis bnyk rasa cam oh! tak cukup time la. banyak lagi nak tulis. and of course bile time dah sket haa.. lagi la banyak benda u nak tulis kan. time tu ideas kuar mencurah2. ape benda nak tulis sumtimes tangan like cakap "wait wait aku dah tak larat ni" hahaha... results boleh tau the next 2 weeks sbb next week cuti. yaay!
i nak gi shopping la. semalam gi roxy tgk ade satu bag tu. i tot nak buy one. tapi tak tgk plak berapa price die. i cam bnyk benda je nak beli. kasut satu. seluar satu. baju keje. baju jalan lain. hmm.. my hair ni. nak curl lagi. maybe dlm 250. uiisshh.. banyak tu nak spend. semalam i dh ckp kat faiz that i will tambah satu baju keje tapi die ckp better i tambah sluar satu sbb die tak banyak seluar. orait gak tu. nnt i belanja. i rasa a bit guilty la on his working clothes due to the fabric softener. i rasa i kena larutkan dalam air dulu baru tuang dalam machine kan. sorry.. syian baju u. pastu i rasa i gosok baju die tak licin la. nnt nak cari iron yg berat tu la. at least dh licin.
HAPPY 7 YEARS 11 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY! LOVE U BABY!
one think now after all of this happened, i realised one thing that man whenever they meet up it's not really or basically nonsense talk but it's more to future generation. how to generate more income. previously i was like aduh! tak yah la nak kuar! aik nak kuar kuar kuar! takleh duk umah ke, cam tak suke je duk umah ckp fon ngan i. tapi bile i pk.. better la die kuar ngan his frens, nway bukannye buat perangai tah pape tah but they discussed something for future. rather than duk umah ckp fon kosong ngan i, spend like 2 3 hours.. rasa cam takde benefit pun kat situ. huisshh.. besar okay responsibility guys ni. nak built family, nak cari $$. we as woman kena know how to play our part. if takleh nak contribute in that idea, least we can do is to support him from the back during ups and downs and the most important thing is to take care of ourself. our pride n dignity. paling penting ok.
to my sayang. thanks for everything. i tau that day u baca blog i kan. i rasa cam malu la. shy shy sbb u baca ape yang i tulis sumer. that's wat i rasa la. yang.. nak kapuk u.. yang.. if u ter baca this post.. i nak tanye.. u sayang i tak? tak pretend? how much? why u treat i so nice cam ni? u miss me tak? i rasa terharu ok. nak hug u la.
yesterday, i nye trial exam. i tak banyak la study but i did sket la. tapi as usual masa time exam tu a bit like blur. tak tau nak tulis ape. i jawab je ape yg i tau. i managed to answer all three questions tapi tu la. i kena brushed on my time management during exam. nanti tak cukup time. tangan i lenguh2 k. jawab question. sbb dah lame tak tulis so bile tulis bnyk rasa cam oh! tak cukup time la. banyak lagi nak tulis. and of course bile time dah sket haa.. lagi la banyak benda u nak tulis kan. time tu ideas kuar mencurah2. ape benda nak tulis sumtimes tangan like cakap "wait wait aku dah tak larat ni" hahaha... results boleh tau the next 2 weeks sbb next week cuti. yaay!
i nak gi shopping la. semalam gi roxy tgk ade satu bag tu. i tot nak buy one. tapi tak tgk plak berapa price die. i cam bnyk benda je nak beli. kasut satu. seluar satu. baju keje. baju jalan lain. hmm.. my hair ni. nak curl lagi. maybe dlm 250. uiisshh.. banyak tu nak spend. semalam i dh ckp kat faiz that i will tambah satu baju keje tapi die ckp better i tambah sluar satu sbb die tak banyak seluar. orait gak tu. nnt i belanja. i rasa a bit guilty la on his working clothes due to the fabric softener. i rasa i kena larutkan dalam air dulu baru tuang dalam machine kan. sorry.. syian baju u. pastu i rasa i gosok baju die tak licin la. nnt nak cari iron yg berat tu la. at least dh licin.
HAPPY 7 YEARS 11 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY! LOVE U BABY!
Friday, April 25, 2008
la la la la la
yesterday i cuti. gi interviu. nervous la. dh lame takde rasa that kind of feelings. b4 pegi i went to wash n blow at a salon sumwhere nearby. only rm18. haha.. i rasa my hair clean. drove to sentral. then took cab to the place. quite easy la tapi juz the traffic that i have to bear. i rasa comfortable with the environment. hopefully insya-Allah murah rezeki i dpt la keje kat situ. no one actually knows about it in my ofis. tapi that lady ckp if ape2 they'll call me. or maybe there'll be a second interviu. wish me best of luck.
this week (the whole week) we dine kat luar. tak masak pun. hmm... maybe next week la. nak masak sup ayam. so at least not that heavy rite.
this week (the whole week) we dine kat luar. tak masak pun. hmm... maybe next week la. nak masak sup ayam. so at least not that heavy rite.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Shower me with your love
that's wat i'm goin to do..
btw, later need to ask him few qs.. that i came accross this morning..
thanx for everything..
alhamdulillah... untukMu Tuhan di atas anugerah yang telah engkau berikan.. Amin..
btw, later need to ask him few qs.. that i came accross this morning..
thanx for everything..
alhamdulillah... untukMu Tuhan di atas anugerah yang telah engkau berikan.. Amin..
Saturday, April 19, 2008
SCALING
gigi saya ngilu sbb tadi pegi scaling. my bro said my mulut berdarah. n like isshh.. a bit geli la. but nvm la. it's for my gigi's health. doctor ckp kena berus gusi as well if not plak will stuck kat situ then gusi jadi tak sihat. so at the moment mmg tak sihat sbb gum i bleeding. hehe..
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