dh lame rasanye tak meng'blog'. ehehe.. well..setelah seminggu menahan emosi akhirnye pagi tadi tewas dgn angkara ibuku. die menyorokkan semua kunci termasuk ic dan lesen bapaku. oh apakah yang berlaku? ibuku juga memberi sekeping nota kepada kami bertiga menyatakan yang jika tidak mahu dia meninggalkan rumah sila letakkan semua kunci di atas meja tanpa sebarang persoalan. apakah yang bermain di benak pemikiran ibuku. sering aku ungkapkan pertanyaan ini. adakah ibuku kesunyian? adakah bapaku tidak mengambil peduli hal ibu? apa apa pun aku pasrah. dan aku hanya boleh buat apa yang aku mampu dan selebihnya aku berdoa dan berserah kepada Yang Maha Esa.
well..i managed to drive the car to work today as i am going to the custom ofis later around 3pm. so drove my car. reached ofis ard 9am. had nasi lemak then prepared for work. well, as usual the issues at my ofis. will not be finished until dunno when. so to be on the safe side, it is better for me to start searching for a better career. i dont seem to see my career ahead in current place. juz bcoz of high salary ppl stay izit? well..maybe when time has come.. people has to make their own move. ard 230pm gerak to custom ofis. settled ard 5pm. went back home. then waited for hubby to fetch me. we went to pasar malam together. it's been a while since we last visited pasar malam together. well..so syoknye! we bought roti john, kuih apam and kebab. then we had minum petang at mamak's. i ate roto telur minum milo tarik. kenyang babe! miss hubby very much.
last sunday i gi fetched hubby n his fren from ofis. semalam..visited his aunty kat ppum. dialysis? correct spelling huh? well..lps tu dh lame tak lepak sesame ngan hubby. so miss him and so into him. nak kapuk u! =)
loan form--> dah submit, tunggu approval from the bank. so far alhamdulillah. lps ni nak tgk balik satu persatu. photographer blum lagi. well..nnt la dulu..=)
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Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
uneasiness in breathing
i'm feeling it since 12 sumthing.i rs x puas nk tarik nafas ni.apsal eh?i xde flu.hmm..nk tdo kang rsnye dh bnyk sgt tdo.td dh kemas sket2 lg.nk g jln2 malas.panas.tp 2 la.x syok ni.ape perlu ku buat skang ni? =(
Saturday, April 25, 2009
wedding preparation
well, thursday we went to see our mak andam. already asked those question yang i nak tanye tu. rasa banyak banyak lega. btw, nanti nak confirm kan ngan photographer plak. arrangements yang banyak lagi kena tanye ngan org catering tu. ni list yg i kena siapkan asap.
1. form loan - scan - email
2. form kebenaran kawen
3. confirm ngan photographer
4. pa system
5. kompang / gamelan
6. baju my family
7. card - jeng jeng jeng dh almost finalised. hubby's side-> parent and family ok, my side, mum and bros ok. sis ok juz some ideas to make it look more beautiful, nnt nk share ngan hubby, man of the house DAD belum lagi. maybe petang karang.
so boleh tak nak kata dalam 50% almost siap. or i lagi prefer 25% hehehe..
tadi gi bawa keta gi pasang cermin and also servis. already told the uncle i'm getting married, nnt ade time i'll drop him an invitation card. kemain panas lagi hari ni. okaylah. nak sambung kemas umah. chiow!
1. form loan - scan - email
2. form kebenaran kawen
3. confirm ngan photographer
4. pa system
5. kompang / gamelan
6. baju my family
7. card - jeng jeng jeng dh almost finalised. hubby's side-> parent and family ok, my side, mum and bros ok. sis ok juz some ideas to make it look more beautiful, nnt nk share ngan hubby, man of the house DAD belum lagi. maybe petang karang.
so boleh tak nak kata dalam 50% almost siap. or i lagi prefer 25% hehehe..
tadi gi bawa keta gi pasang cermin and also servis. already told the uncle i'm getting married, nnt ade time i'll drop him an invitation card. kemain panas lagi hari ni. okaylah. nak sambung kemas umah. chiow!
~ faiz ~ rindu u!
i am missing my dearest fiancee. he is off to penang for 3 days training. huhu! tapi takpe.. esok die dh nak balik. yaay! blh kapuk n kish die. so rindu die!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
lalalalala...
yoohoo! alhamdulillah my mood was quite stable tis week. after a few days yg tensi and bengkek. well, i am juz trying taking things easily. accept the facts and blend with it. well well.. i juz had mcchicken for dinner. earlier went to drive thru with bro and mum after a session of mum missing or MIA. tis time it was quite long. since afternoon, according to bob. so imagine. i fetched her ard 8pm. wondering wat is she up to. sometimes i do wonder, is she feeling unhappy with her marriage, with her kids. n now when i am trying to talk to her ask her wat do she feel. she doesnt want to let it out. am i too late to ask for that. of course i and infact my siblings do love her. i am juz praying everyday that both my parent have long life, healthy, and lots lots more good things. when everytime i sad and sighing bout my family, i will have the thoughts that fiancee used to say. even though ur family is like that, u shud be thankful coz u stil have families. if compared to other people yang nak getting married, family is not there. yeahh! slap slap on the face. tapi kan yang.. ye la. everyone is wishing that they are having the happiest family in the world. tapi the fact is we cant. we are human beings. i have said in my previous post. each one of us in the world have different thinking and that's y many groups, many thoughts, or else our world will be a happy healthy world til end of our lives. no sighing... insya-Allah..mungkin ade hikmahnye.. learning things now so when i have my own family, it will be a great teacher to me. i do believe that one day, those words that my parents had said to me will be recalled by myself. when the time i have children, when i'm married, and in so many ways.. =( *sob*sob*
today hubby was so cute. we text each other for many times today. n the mutual feelings that i had towards marriage. guess so that is the feelings everyone is facing. =) well, i miss him badly la. u know the feelings of wanting to be together is so streamly high. tapi we have to control coz that's our promise. we got like few more months before the time.. insya-Allah. will jaga it..so sweet la. ohh talking bout my fiancee.. he is doing fine at new ofis place. he said he wanted to serve for the co til he pencen. n yesterday when he talked bout the nursery at his ofis, how i wish i cud look at that face again. he wants babies.. so adorable. so cute. feel like kissing and nak kunyah kunyah die. geram nye...isshhh!! isshh!!
i were supposed to kemas my books. tapi tak wat lagi. oohh..oohh... dah dua kali fiancee ckp. tgh malas plak. tapi nnt membebel ckp books hilang la. hahaha.. apa la i ni. nnt dh kemas i update dalam blog. actually i ni upload gambar dlm pc tapi tak buat buat pun lagi. today ade time fon plak tgh charge. takpela.. nnt nnt la. tapi tu la nak post satu gambar cute with fiancee. nak kunyah die lagi. geram nye kat u yang... ;) now he is busy with sticker printing and cutting. he'll be off to penang for 3 days. gonna miss him. he got the seminar and training there. take care yang. this weekend maybe i will be going out with sis and bro. see how. i actually geram nak nyopping kat sg wang. tapi tu la. i got other things to do for my wedding preparation rather than spending unnecessary. well, will seek for fiancee's opinion dulu. boleh ye??
okaylah..dh ngantuk. gud nite malaysia!
today hubby was so cute. we text each other for many times today. n the mutual feelings that i had towards marriage. guess so that is the feelings everyone is facing. =) well, i miss him badly la. u know the feelings of wanting to be together is so streamly high. tapi we have to control coz that's our promise. we got like few more months before the time.. insya-Allah. will jaga it..so sweet la. ohh talking bout my fiancee.. he is doing fine at new ofis place. he said he wanted to serve for the co til he pencen. n yesterday when he talked bout the nursery at his ofis, how i wish i cud look at that face again. he wants babies.. so adorable. so cute. feel like kissing and nak kunyah kunyah die. geram nye...isshhh!! isshh!!
i were supposed to kemas my books. tapi tak wat lagi. oohh..oohh... dah dua kali fiancee ckp. tgh malas plak. tapi nnt membebel ckp books hilang la. hahaha.. apa la i ni. nnt dh kemas i update dalam blog. actually i ni upload gambar dlm pc tapi tak buat buat pun lagi. today ade time fon plak tgh charge. takpela.. nnt nnt la. tapi tu la nak post satu gambar cute with fiancee. nak kunyah die lagi. geram nye kat u yang... ;) now he is busy with sticker printing and cutting. he'll be off to penang for 3 days. gonna miss him. he got the seminar and training there. take care yang. this weekend maybe i will be going out with sis and bro. see how. i actually geram nak nyopping kat sg wang. tapi tu la. i got other things to do for my wedding preparation rather than spending unnecessary. well, will seek for fiancee's opinion dulu. boleh ye??
okaylah..dh ngantuk. gud nite malaysia!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
happy tuesday
ewah ewah..suke suki je happy tuesday la, monday blues la, glad weekend la.. hahaha.. janji gue happy. btw, ni nk update dlm blog wat happened for the last few days. been wondering when la can i blog coz bro asik asik gune pc. kat ofis plak takde masa skang ni. well, skang ni bro gi amik bro lagi satu from tuition.
well well.. i dh pindah cubicle since yesterday petang. semalam i masam giler. hehe..angkat barang2 then susun sket2. pastu dh ptg. yesterday kan fon kena block. haiya..tapi last nite dear fiancee went to pay at maxis kiosk already. ni dh okay balik. infact last nite actually. yesterday kan, my mood teruk ok. since that day. saturday la. it is happening like this.
saturday woke up ard 1030am. siap2 coz i'm meeting mus at sg wang. catching things up. mule2 we all brunch dulu. dlm 1230pm camtu.. pastu jln2 la. tgk baju, seluar, handbags, kasut, terasa cam aduh..kalo ade la $$ time ni mesti aku dh shopping. tapi sebab itu la Tuhan tak mengizinkan aku tu haf $$ at that time sbb kalo tak i will be spending a bit [a bit ke? mm.. maybe dlm rm100 kot] ahaks.. pastu gi lot 10. bosan la. bnyk shops dh tutup. maybe pindah. the day was pretty hot ok. then we decided masuk balik sg wang. then mus ajak makan sekali lagi. tis time i ate char kuey teow. sedap la. not bad. borak punye borak..then we realised yang we all ni dh tue. banyak lepak borak2 je. jalan2 dh tak sgt. letih la. kalo dulu.. tak makan pun takpe. asalkan dpt jalan beli baju. wat ever it is i really enjoy my outing. then balik tu fetch farid at his college. he got to attend an event at his college. some rumah hantu he said. then balik tu as usual. parent were at home. juz the both of them. than, roughly ard 7..pung pang pung pang.. parent had an argument. dunno bout wat. i was like damn! ape ni. tension nye aku. pastu gelas pecah. aku dh la nak gi tgk bola. pastu ingat tak jadi. then i kemas sket2. tunggu bob balik then die yg vacuum. i went to watch SEL vs PERLIS. SEL won 2-1. last minute score. well enjoyed the game til end. i menemankan dearest dear. i asked him kan y dulu2 tak ajak i teman gi tgk bola. then he juz smiled. so adorable! geram nak mamam u!.. balik umah around 12 sumthing after lepaking. i had mm.. yong tau foo. kenyang tau. pastu spend some time on the fon ngan sayang until ngantuk dan tido. =)
sunday nangis teruk punye. my bed n bro kena jirus ngan air by dad. dad bengang lagi rasanye psl saturday. habis satu umah nak jirus. i pun bengang la.. ckp ngan farid lps ni kita tak yah nk kemas umah. biar bersepah dalam dan luar. sbb kite tak wat keje pun. pastu pk punye pk i rasa takleh kena jgk kemas umah coz i'm leaving in it. btw. i managed to control my stupidity and angerness. pastu petang gi accompany hubby to his house. mum's bday celebration. so happy. i tried playing few notes on the keyboard at his house.
waitt.. i'm watching cry baby on astro. i like this movie since i kecik. johnny depp so cute la. hahaha.. tapi my fiancee lagi cute.
tadi i dine with fiancee. he is so adorable. wish cud hug n kiss him now and everytime coz i am missing him so much. love u darling! i'm very happy with his achievement now. with his work. congrats dear. may success comes ur way after this.
well well.. i dh pindah cubicle since yesterday petang. semalam i masam giler. hehe..angkat barang2 then susun sket2. pastu dh ptg. yesterday kan fon kena block. haiya..tapi last nite dear fiancee went to pay at maxis kiosk already. ni dh okay balik. infact last nite actually. yesterday kan, my mood teruk ok. since that day. saturday la. it is happening like this.
saturday woke up ard 1030am. siap2 coz i'm meeting mus at sg wang. catching things up. mule2 we all brunch dulu. dlm 1230pm camtu.. pastu jln2 la. tgk baju, seluar, handbags, kasut, terasa cam aduh..kalo ade la $$ time ni mesti aku dh shopping. tapi sebab itu la Tuhan tak mengizinkan aku tu haf $$ at that time sbb kalo tak i will be spending a bit [a bit ke? mm.. maybe dlm rm100 kot] ahaks.. pastu gi lot 10. bosan la. bnyk shops dh tutup. maybe pindah. the day was pretty hot ok. then we decided masuk balik sg wang. then mus ajak makan sekali lagi. tis time i ate char kuey teow. sedap la. not bad. borak punye borak..then we realised yang we all ni dh tue. banyak lepak borak2 je. jalan2 dh tak sgt. letih la. kalo dulu.. tak makan pun takpe. asalkan dpt jalan beli baju. wat ever it is i really enjoy my outing. then balik tu fetch farid at his college. he got to attend an event at his college. some rumah hantu he said. then balik tu as usual. parent were at home. juz the both of them. than, roughly ard 7..pung pang pung pang.. parent had an argument. dunno bout wat. i was like damn! ape ni. tension nye aku. pastu gelas pecah. aku dh la nak gi tgk bola. pastu ingat tak jadi. then i kemas sket2. tunggu bob balik then die yg vacuum. i went to watch SEL vs PERLIS. SEL won 2-1. last minute score. well enjoyed the game til end. i menemankan dearest dear. i asked him kan y dulu2 tak ajak i teman gi tgk bola. then he juz smiled. so adorable! geram nak mamam u!.. balik umah around 12 sumthing after lepaking. i had mm.. yong tau foo. kenyang tau. pastu spend some time on the fon ngan sayang until ngantuk dan tido. =)
sunday nangis teruk punye. my bed n bro kena jirus ngan air by dad. dad bengang lagi rasanye psl saturday. habis satu umah nak jirus. i pun bengang la.. ckp ngan farid lps ni kita tak yah nk kemas umah. biar bersepah dalam dan luar. sbb kite tak wat keje pun. pastu pk punye pk i rasa takleh kena jgk kemas umah coz i'm leaving in it. btw. i managed to control my stupidity and angerness. pastu petang gi accompany hubby to his house. mum's bday celebration. so happy. i tried playing few notes on the keyboard at his house.
waitt.. i'm watching cry baby on astro. i like this movie since i kecik. johnny depp so cute la. hahaha.. tapi my fiancee lagi cute.
tadi i dine with fiancee. he is so adorable. wish cud hug n kiss him now and everytime coz i am missing him so much. love u darling! i'm very happy with his achievement now. with his work. congrats dear. may success comes ur way after this.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
today is thursday
sakit perut sakit perut sakit perut sakit perut sakit perut sakit perut.. the time of the month. tis month it is 5 days earlier. well, yesterday asked my colleague, is it bcoz of stress our period will be faster b4 due date. she said no la. usually it is later. but wat ever it is as long as we got our period for the month. coz that is important. malam ni blum makan menstrual lagi. if nanti tak tahan sangat i will reconsider bout it. semalam lagi la. tido pun tak nyenyak. sekejap kanan kejap kiri, kejap telangkup. last2 last2 tido jgk la. dlm 630 i bangun to work.
office issues.. my colleagues already moved to their respective cubicles. mine will be next week as i requested for another one week so that i can finish printing and processing the billings. new people already moved in to my going to be ex-place. hhmm.. new cubicle will be next to cabinet. ppl say apala..shima. die nak ckp ngan cabinet kot. tapi for me skang. lebih baik and much more better. i went home pretty early this week. malas nak stay. even my superior pun ckp. skang ni he tak kesa if u all nak balik awal. previously we all stay sbb nak clear kan keje, pastu bile banyak benda dh tip top ppl [remember the kipas-kipas ladies] nak dummed keje lain kat we all plak. so biar we all buat keje pastu biar siap last minute so we takyah nak wat keje orang lain.
yesterday--> hubby's 1st day reporting at new ofis. wow! what a great feeling for him. wished him all the best and successness in his career. in the meantime, i ni stil tgh nak stable kan my career in line with my studies. i left like 4 papers lagi. insya-Allah. after my training yesterday, hubby fetched me from sentral. then balik gi teman die beli baju batik. he looked so different. he even laughed at himself. so different. YB style. hehehe.. cute! love him. then we went to dine at kfc. kenyang tau. yummy! yummy!.. jgn jeles. thanx yang.
my house kan.. banyak benda la. i malas nak citer. mum + dad + $$ la.. pening kepala aku ni. hoping that they are fine, sihat for my wedding ceremony nanti. insya-Allah!
office issues.. my colleagues already moved to their respective cubicles. mine will be next week as i requested for another one week so that i can finish printing and processing the billings. new people already moved in to my going to be ex-place. hhmm.. new cubicle will be next to cabinet. ppl say apala..shima. die nak ckp ngan cabinet kot. tapi for me skang. lebih baik and much more better. i went home pretty early this week. malas nak stay. even my superior pun ckp. skang ni he tak kesa if u all nak balik awal. previously we all stay sbb nak clear kan keje, pastu bile banyak benda dh tip top ppl [remember the kipas-kipas ladies] nak dummed keje lain kat we all plak. so biar we all buat keje pastu biar siap last minute so we takyah nak wat keje orang lain.
yesterday--> hubby's 1st day reporting at new ofis. wow! what a great feeling for him. wished him all the best and successness in his career. in the meantime, i ni stil tgh nak stable kan my career in line with my studies. i left like 4 papers lagi. insya-Allah. after my training yesterday, hubby fetched me from sentral. then balik gi teman die beli baju batik. he looked so different. he even laughed at himself. so different. YB style. hehehe.. cute! love him. then we went to dine at kfc. kenyang tau. yummy! yummy!.. jgn jeles. thanx yang.
my house kan.. banyak benda la. i malas nak citer. mum + dad + $$ la.. pening kepala aku ni. hoping that they are fine, sihat for my wedding ceremony nanti. insya-Allah!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
glad weekend
i was so relieved that it is weekend. well last week was a very horrifying, horror, full of emotion breakdowns, some happiness, cruelness and lemme see wat other else..well a lot of things.
first and foremost congratulations to dear hubby as he already been accepted by a company and he'll be starting his job by next week. i'm really happy and glad for him. after the criedness and downness.. finally. alhamdulillah. n that's wat he said to me previoulsy, a wedding gift from God.
back to the most hated part that is my job. i'm blessed with alhamdulillah quite attractive salary but the office shits politics that are so damn stupid. you know la. at my ofis got these 3 ladies yang so damn GK and suke bodek and kipas boss, well lemme cut this short, in order for them to climb up the stairs ie; to get acknowledgement, name, title, they are willing to stabback their staff and make them suffer. well, suke hati ko. happy sgt ke life ko wat orang cam tu. but when i realize rite, these 3 ladies faced the same thing in their personal life and maybe they want to have victory in working life. well, go sucks with working life as for me the most important thing is myself, my husband, my kids and my family. feeling satisfied meaning to see this people happy. damn to those 3 ladies that actually felt tlonely in their personal life. too bad! sorry for them. so, i now juz motivate myself, ape2 la. at the same time, i am already starting looking for another job. insya-Allah, so i have to be strong and no emotional breakdown in this current office. feels so ignorant. so, me n colleagues have decided to boikot these 3 ladies, especially this nee going to be manager la. nak tgk whether can she managed or not. and i bet so no. i think she is scared to take the portfolios, and that's y she alwayz say i ni checker je, check, advise, well, to me orang lain boleh buat. juz bcoz u r old, don think i will respect u at all times. puh-leaze...fucked off lah u people. maybe not now, but i'm pretty sure u r going to get it sooner or later. what comes around goes around. don't forget.
well, back to my happily journey towards marriage. today, i n hubby will go n see the mak andam to measure our body for the baju kawin. well, new experience for me. yaay! today i woke up pretty early. had my subuh prayer, cut my fingernails, n now kemas2 baju. semalam i was like damn sleepy that i slept for like 3hours. last nite i tido quite early. maybe that's y i can wake up early today. well, hubby had packed most of his stuff from offis. he is shifting back to home. while working permanently, he will continue with his side business as usual. good luck to you yang! honey will pray for ur success.
first and foremost congratulations to dear hubby as he already been accepted by a company and he'll be starting his job by next week. i'm really happy and glad for him. after the criedness and downness.. finally. alhamdulillah. n that's wat he said to me previoulsy, a wedding gift from God.
back to the most hated part that is my job. i'm blessed with alhamdulillah quite attractive salary but the office shits politics that are so damn stupid. you know la. at my ofis got these 3 ladies yang so damn GK and suke bodek and kipas boss, well lemme cut this short, in order for them to climb up the stairs ie; to get acknowledgement, name, title, they are willing to stabback their staff and make them suffer. well, suke hati ko. happy sgt ke life ko wat orang cam tu. but when i realize rite, these 3 ladies faced the same thing in their personal life and maybe they want to have victory in working life. well, go sucks with working life as for me the most important thing is myself, my husband, my kids and my family. feeling satisfied meaning to see this people happy. damn to those 3 ladies that actually felt tlonely in their personal life. too bad! sorry for them. so, i now juz motivate myself, ape2 la. at the same time, i am already starting looking for another job. insya-Allah, so i have to be strong and no emotional breakdown in this current office. feels so ignorant. so, me n colleagues have decided to boikot these 3 ladies, especially this nee going to be manager la. nak tgk whether can she managed or not. and i bet so no. i think she is scared to take the portfolios, and that's y she alwayz say i ni checker je, check, advise, well, to me orang lain boleh buat. juz bcoz u r old, don think i will respect u at all times. puh-leaze...fucked off lah u people. maybe not now, but i'm pretty sure u r going to get it sooner or later. what comes around goes around. don't forget.
well, back to my happily journey towards marriage. today, i n hubby will go n see the mak andam to measure our body for the baju kawin. well, new experience for me. yaay! today i woke up pretty early. had my subuh prayer, cut my fingernails, n now kemas2 baju. semalam i was like damn sleepy that i slept for like 3hours. last nite i tido quite early. maybe that's y i can wake up early today. well, hubby had packed most of his stuff from offis. he is shifting back to home. while working permanently, he will continue with his side business as usual. good luck to you yang! honey will pray for ur success.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
music gadgets
hhmm..hhmm..hurrmm.. i wanted to add the music gadget to my blog but i dont seem to find which is suitable. well, talking bout previous post, i cant recall the hard times yesterday bout reporting bout illness of my car to dad. anyway, bcoz i was soo geram and also courage from dearest dear, i managed to spill it out. but earlier than that i cried. well, today i mean currently i felt so sleepy. twice yesterday n today i felt a situation of difficulties in breathing. y ar? am i too stress i am not feeling well or is it the weather is pretty cold that i cant handle the cold. syian i. hubby dh worried bout me. well, wishing for a better day ahead.
anywaysss... on top of that i was pretty happy earlier. i had 2 keping bulat lempeng kelapa. yummy yummy...cicah susu. kenyang! thanx to hubby's mother. =)
anywaysss... on top of that i was pretty happy earlier. i had 2 keping bulat lempeng kelapa. yummy yummy...cicah susu. kenyang! thanx to hubby's mother. =)
raining on monday afternoon
it was raining heavily on monday afternoon which doesnt allow me to go luncheon outside. i was lucky enuff i guess as i did not went out for lunch with mus at klcc coz i'll be wondering how am i will go back to ofis if it is a heavy rain downpour. well.. lots of things happened thru out the weekend. but i dont have the time to write it out now. most prob later at nite after i balik from ofis. i am damn full now. makan banyak skali. i tapau je from food court and ate at the back with few colleagues and of course they are asking a lot of my wedding preparation. well, banyak benda lagi nak kena tgk ni. hopefully boleh settle dlm masa brape bulan ni. i ni pening lagi la pasal hubby's job finding. mudah-mudahan murah rezeki.
Friday, April 3, 2009
tgif
yoohoo! it's already friday today. n i'm on lunch break. that means i am so near or nearby to weekend. yaay! after a long week of working hours tis wk which i felt la. the sc already came to visit. hopefully it is over already. but juz now june said, they may came back after lunch to ask questions randomly. hoping n praying for the best. well, i am so full. wat a habit. when i am too hungry i'll be damn hungry like last nite. but when i am damn full, i am so damn full that i feel like vomitting in order to finish my food. well, truk kan habit i ni. i ate one full plate or rice with lauk ayam kurma. i took 3 slices of potatoes and also chicken's thigh. well, if u see the size of chicken and potatoes i am sure i can't finish it but totally wrong.. erggg...the buzzer sound for answering wrongly. i ate them all. i mean not la including the tulangs ayam. that's y now i am damn full. fuuhh! apa apa pun alhamdulillah.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
pizza
kenyang! my dept had pizza for lunch. i'm full. it is bcoz we haf lots n tonnes of work to be done b4 the visit by sc. aarrgghh! tension la me... btw, got to go now. will update later. chiow!
continuation from earlier post. i'm at home currently. after having a tough day today completing the task left by my colleague as she was warded in a hospital due to athmatic. pity her. i am a lucky one girl here coz alhamdulillah athmatic in me can be resolved through out my schooling days. i remembered last time, my dad used to take us to this house of traditional urut somewhere in cheras. the makcik used this kind of daun and when she puts on the spotted areas on our [me n kak yan] chest and back, it felt soo hot but she said it was good to make ur heart beats faster and even faster that you wil not get athma. well, so far so good. i remembered that when i discovered that i have difficulty in athma when i was in standard 4. that time i was wearing this orange fashion baju kurung with the sponges on shoulders [berlagak dh besar] playing outside my house. that time i can't remember what game i was playing but towards senja, when i got inside the house, i'm facing difficulty in breathing. i was like imagining suffocating. it's painful at that time. i can't speak clearly. those words i blurted out was like 'ma...ma..shi..ma..pe...nat..tak..cu...kup...na..fas' whooshh.. and that was the first time i was brought to this clinic called klinik amardev. i was given the pump where the cup and the hose was worn around my head and then i have to take a deep breath until there is no asap coming out from the hole of the mask. sakit masa nak tarik tu. i'm not sure how many times i went to buang asap. not juz in my previous house, but also when at my kampung. so that time, mum said i have to slow down my activities as in playing in sports, including my lompat getah and eat those cold fruits especially papaya. after when thru few medications and also growing older, alhamdulillah, it is lesser and lesser. i was lucky that i dont take any puff from inhaler coz i kno it is that bad when we use that. my sis does til like she enters tertiary levels. when i was in form 1, u kno la, we will have this sukantara. everyone must involved in those activities. i was scared to join coz athma la. but i juz try and so far takde pape. n that's y i took up the cheerleading squad in form 3. sampai skrang takde la semput2. juz bile i cried so sedih or it was sooo cold then i will kind of face a lil bit of breathing difficulties. thanks to my hubby for being so conccerning. he will warm me up when i'm cold coz he wouldn't want to see me cold n shivering.
mum juz passed by, asking me to take her to concorde hotel. she said she wanna to ask some questions. then i was like.. eh..i tot my wedding is at home. then she said ye la.. memang kat umah. but y she wants to go there? any secret issues? i will find out tomoro or maybe this weekend. so curiousity.
well, talking bout my wedding card. i have seen the inside. thanx to hubby for the sweet n beautiful design. i really like it. so like wonderful, peacefull, cantik and soothing. i am really loving it and liking it. i was like WOW! when he showed me the card. wow again and i'm speechless. he said stil amending here and there. the card is not final yet. will post it to the blog once it is ready to be printed. yaay! suka sangat. cantik la. i was smiling that i can even see my cheek bone. haha!
hubby is facing his hard times at the moment regarding his life. business, work, job. hmm.. i'm not in his shoes and wil not feel the same as wat he feels. but i wil try my best to understand and help his situation. i am soo worried and even a bit stressed with this kind of situation. keep on praying to God for job opportunities. mudah-mudahan murah rezeki. Amin. he cried several times today. i am not by his side to wipe his tears and yet i do feel his sadness and i do feel sad bout it. y was it quite difficult for him to land on a job. he has tried all ways n all means. is that any methods left that was not used? btw, juz telling him keep on continuing applying and praying at the same time. will try my best at my side to land him in a secured job. insya-Allah.
back to my ofis, well bout my colleague. she's not feeling well that she was admitted and we need to settle the job for tomorrow's visit. alhamdulillah semua siap. the checklist, the interest payment list and also house keeping. well, everything is in order. went home ard 8pm today. wat i wasn't really agreed to was that, my superior said he has been watching this girl and she seems to cant cope with stress that leads her to athma and fever. so he was thinking to swap my work with hers. i wasn't agreed coz i was thinking like, in order to handle other people's stress, u have to make other people into stress as well. well, i was like wat cleaning up shits at my ofis and when i can breathe in wat i amdoing currently, i am being dummed again into a whole mud full of shit. it's like uurrgghh..i told my superior but he said that u have the qualification, y cant u swap the job with the less using brains to the ones using more thinking ability. well, it is not really a big deal but i dont like the management of my ofis. it is sucks okay. been transferring people's job and position here and everywhere without actually thinking that where can i improve myself. for example i was doing half way A, then swap doing B so at last, both A & B abandoned. dunno la. i really have to think positive now coz i shud be thankful coz i have a job to actually give me my pocket money. waiting for my bonus this year. maybe it is prorated. but who cares. as long i got some from the efforts i have been throwing out at my ofis. i think i became skinnier now even my sis told me that. is it i am stressed with the wedding preparation? well, everybody is facing that. but i feel more relax now as the big chunk already being solved. now i'm looking into the loan taking. i have decided to take up the lowest repayment method. hopefully, the balance can be used for emergencies.
wahh..wat a long post i got here. april has open its curtain. left me with 4 more months to my big day. i am nervous and nervous. and of course i am happy! well, i'm getting sleepier already. off to bed soon. need to prepare myself for tomoro. nite! nite!
continuation from earlier post. i'm at home currently. after having a tough day today completing the task left by my colleague as she was warded in a hospital due to athmatic. pity her. i am a lucky one girl here coz alhamdulillah athmatic in me can be resolved through out my schooling days. i remembered last time, my dad used to take us to this house of traditional urut somewhere in cheras. the makcik used this kind of daun and when she puts on the spotted areas on our [me n kak yan] chest and back, it felt soo hot but she said it was good to make ur heart beats faster and even faster that you wil not get athma. well, so far so good. i remembered that when i discovered that i have difficulty in athma when i was in standard 4. that time i was wearing this orange fashion baju kurung with the sponges on shoulders [berlagak dh besar] playing outside my house. that time i can't remember what game i was playing but towards senja, when i got inside the house, i'm facing difficulty in breathing. i was like imagining suffocating. it's painful at that time. i can't speak clearly. those words i blurted out was like 'ma...ma..shi..ma..pe...nat..tak..cu...kup...na..fas' whooshh.. and that was the first time i was brought to this clinic called klinik amardev. i was given the pump where the cup and the hose was worn around my head and then i have to take a deep breath until there is no asap coming out from the hole of the mask. sakit masa nak tarik tu. i'm not sure how many times i went to buang asap. not juz in my previous house, but also when at my kampung. so that time, mum said i have to slow down my activities as in playing in sports, including my lompat getah and eat those cold fruits especially papaya. after when thru few medications and also growing older, alhamdulillah, it is lesser and lesser. i was lucky that i dont take any puff from inhaler coz i kno it is that bad when we use that. my sis does til like she enters tertiary levels. when i was in form 1, u kno la, we will have this sukantara. everyone must involved in those activities. i was scared to join coz athma la. but i juz try and so far takde pape. n that's y i took up the cheerleading squad in form 3. sampai skrang takde la semput2. juz bile i cried so sedih or it was sooo cold then i will kind of face a lil bit of breathing difficulties. thanks to my hubby for being so conccerning. he will warm me up when i'm cold coz he wouldn't want to see me cold n shivering.
mum juz passed by, asking me to take her to concorde hotel. she said she wanna to ask some questions. then i was like.. eh..i tot my wedding is at home. then she said ye la.. memang kat umah. but y she wants to go there? any secret issues? i will find out tomoro or maybe this weekend. so curiousity.
well, talking bout my wedding card. i have seen the inside. thanx to hubby for the sweet n beautiful design. i really like it. so like wonderful, peacefull, cantik and soothing. i am really loving it and liking it. i was like WOW! when he showed me the card. wow again and i'm speechless. he said stil amending here and there. the card is not final yet. will post it to the blog once it is ready to be printed. yaay! suka sangat. cantik la. i was smiling that i can even see my cheek bone. haha!
hubby is facing his hard times at the moment regarding his life. business, work, job. hmm.. i'm not in his shoes and wil not feel the same as wat he feels. but i wil try my best to understand and help his situation. i am soo worried and even a bit stressed with this kind of situation. keep on praying to God for job opportunities. mudah-mudahan murah rezeki. Amin. he cried several times today. i am not by his side to wipe his tears and yet i do feel his sadness and i do feel sad bout it. y was it quite difficult for him to land on a job. he has tried all ways n all means. is that any methods left that was not used? btw, juz telling him keep on continuing applying and praying at the same time. will try my best at my side to land him in a secured job. insya-Allah.
back to my ofis, well bout my colleague. she's not feeling well that she was admitted and we need to settle the job for tomorrow's visit. alhamdulillah semua siap. the checklist, the interest payment list and also house keeping. well, everything is in order. went home ard 8pm today. wat i wasn't really agreed to was that, my superior said he has been watching this girl and she seems to cant cope with stress that leads her to athma and fever. so he was thinking to swap my work with hers. i wasn't agreed coz i was thinking like, in order to handle other people's stress, u have to make other people into stress as well. well, i was like wat cleaning up shits at my ofis and when i can breathe in wat i amdoing currently, i am being dummed again into a whole mud full of shit. it's like uurrgghh..i told my superior but he said that u have the qualification, y cant u swap the job with the less using brains to the ones using more thinking ability. well, it is not really a big deal but i dont like the management of my ofis. it is sucks okay. been transferring people's job and position here and everywhere without actually thinking that where can i improve myself. for example i was doing half way A, then swap doing B so at last, both A & B abandoned. dunno la. i really have to think positive now coz i shud be thankful coz i have a job to actually give me my pocket money. waiting for my bonus this year. maybe it is prorated. but who cares. as long i got some from the efforts i have been throwing out at my ofis. i think i became skinnier now even my sis told me that. is it i am stressed with the wedding preparation? well, everybody is facing that. but i feel more relax now as the big chunk already being solved. now i'm looking into the loan taking. i have decided to take up the lowest repayment method. hopefully, the balance can be used for emergencies.
wahh..wat a long post i got here. april has open its curtain. left me with 4 more months to my big day. i am nervous and nervous. and of course i am happy! well, i'm getting sleepier already. off to bed soon. need to prepare myself for tomoro. nite! nite!
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