pertaining to previous post

isshh..tak tau nak kata ape. this whole week was like a looooooong week for me. i started my monday with a happy mood coz i'm back from holidays, then it is dragged to end of the week. i mean til today friday. even my holidays i have no time to share it in my blog. now it is juz the sad sappy part of my life. btw, that's wat life is. at times u'll feel happy. at times u'll feel sad n sappy. at times u r angry. my mood was uneasy to sustain. after a mood-wash yesterday, i woke up today feeling refreshing but unfortunately, my mood is the other way round after one fon call from brother this afternoon. mum was not back yet since 7 in the morning. sumtimes rasa cam nak go crazee.
tadi dad juz got home. n u know wat..i told dad that mum seems to be okay when she took the hormone medication from general hospital but u know wat he said. it looks like the clinic is klinik sakit jiwa [psychiatrist] y our typical malay are like that ar? if we go to see psychiatrist means we are no longer in our sense. as in we are INSANE. CRAZY. ohh.. but wat i see is the positive side. fiancee was thinking of taking mum again to see the psychiatrist maybe at sjmc as i said it is nearer to home. cost that we have to bear. well, wanted to find out tomoro or monday wat is it about. u know i am soooo tensed bout that.
my job --> trying to take things easy at workplace. bcoz i am not going to work there for lifetime. but family yes and a big YES. of course more priority to them. i dah start sakit2 kepala n pening for these past few days. i think i am tensed. i am trying to care of my food consuming so i'll not be getting gastric. so nobody can get worried sick of me.
fiancee--> thanks for being concerning. i know u r trying to understand but at times i juz felt like it is enuf for u to kno of my probs coz u r full with ur own probs urself [family, business, money, work, friends, girlfriends, ex-s, myself) hhmmm... sometimes juz wondering whether is it possible for me to wake up the next day without being heavily bocked down on my brain. sakit la kepala i ni. if it involves analytical or subjective my right side of brain is the correct part. involving figures and figures will be left side. so at work will be more on left but on right will be on other matters.
already had my dinner that is quite late la. around 10am. going to bed soon. i'm pretty sleepy.