Last day of 2018

huhu.. so sad

Went to see fireworks.

Another year has passed. Daughter going to standard 1. Eldest is going to standard 3. Zayyan is growing. Parents becoming older. Myself too. More to self reflection lah this year.

May Allah continue merahmati kita semua. Ameen.

School holiday almost over

school holiday almost over. Meaning ending of the year of 2018. What a year to went through. Alhamdulillah for all the blessings and doas and for evrything that went as it is. Eventhough ada yang  buat sakit hati ke apa ke yes that is whAt life is all about. Inshaallah for another wonderful year ahead of us. 2018, graduation for my daughter. She is going to be in promary one next uear. Everytine think about it, i feel sad. When i told her that, she also said alaa mummy jangan lah. Nanti adik nangis. :) takpe. I faham. That what mum need to go through through their lives. Then i got one more soldie aka zayyan mucut mummy. Semiga sentiasa dirahmati dan panjang umur. Love u all kids. As to zafran, mummy dont expect much. As long as boleh cope with both schools besides being a good boy. Bertuah sangat lah anak mummy ni. Sometimes geram sangat kat dia. Suka buli adiks dia especially zara. Adoiyaii.. nnt school dah start, diam sekejap. Takleh jumpa each other sampai petang.  :( to daddy, sian u lah adoiii. Work sorang like hell. Love u so!

My mother

it is a bit question lah dengan condition dia. I is pelik. Not comparing with other people’s mom, tapi more of like eh kenapa dia ni ye. Macam so scared of things. Mcm risau sgt. Over risau. I didnt see her pray at the moment. Kenapa ye? Mcm pelik lagi lah. When i asked, she said nothing. Takde apa2. Pastu abah pun mcm nak marah je. I kdg2 kusut.

A week at tokmak’s house

spending the last few days of school holiday over here. Not much activity to be done. Besides zara’s school orientation and fees payment. Others are status quo. BasicAlly done. Cuma dok pikit dari tadi nak pegi laundry ke tidak. Hurmm..? Bila fikir balik yes i will have too. If not nak cuci sendiri mcm lambat kering pulak. Hehehe.. tapi malas menguasai diri. Camne eh?

School things shopping

well ladies mmg suka shop and shop and shop. Beli barang sekolah anak pun excited lebih. Hahaha. Alhamdulilah managed to cover all. Tinggal nak beli buku sekolah and fees settlement lah. Takde apa lagi pah nak cari . Sticker, cop nama semua dah dpt. tggl nak apply je. Mudah mudahan allah permudahkan urusan persekolahan zafran and zara in 2019 nanti. Ameen.

Shopee oh shopee

Goshh from one thing i am surveying jadi berbanyak2 barang kita dok survey sekali. And then dok fikir is it worth it to buy them. Actually was looking for the shelves. Nak letak rumah shah alam and klang sekali. Pastu fikir this one berat and big, why dont i purchase it at the mall or supermarket. If kecik brg dia then okay lah to post kan. Tapi wondering worth it ke tak. Pastu browse browse jumpa undies organizer. Do i really need it. Daripada guna kotak kasut je. Why dont we use that kind of organizer. Tapi berbaloi ke beli online? Ke better beli kat GM je. You know that kind of things. Hahaha... tu lah dia. My topic. Shopee oh shopee. :)

Macam moody je

Haishh la mood ni. Kejap ok kejap tak. Malas nak layan kan dia. :( bila ngantuk tak nak tido pulak. Tapi terkuap kuap. Sian daughter. Not feeling well. Demam. Get well soon lala turtut.

Nilai Springs

We were here for another 3 days. Followed daddy til the weekend. Then our holidays is over. Thank you daddy for bringing us to your workplace. Sometimes feel that is it ok to follow u to work. Mcm trouble kan u je dgn nak juggle with your work and your family there as well. Apa apa pun bersyukur sangat sbb dapat opportunity tu. thanx yang. Love u! Kids enjoyed the pool so much that zafran already made it to swim by himself nnt ada opportunity lagi we can go swimming. But selalunya if pegi sendiri 3 hari  2 malam je la. Tak dapt lama2 like 2 weeks. Hehehehe :) btw, bam dah reti request for club sandwich

Melaka trip & Johor trip

followed daddy to work. 3 nights in melaka. We stayed in the pines. Middle of the town. Breakfast provided. Pool was nice. Room was spacious and me feel comfortable to staythere with the kids. Kids of course syok la and happy dok hotel. Lucky we brought monopoly and jengga. Besides buku latihan. Boleh layan2 kan diorang. Zayyan toys and bood pun bawak sMa. Hehe :) makan in melaka. Roti naan of course. Tepi river cruise and the last night kita makan apa eh? Tak ingat langsung. Pastu sambubg trip to Johor. Kali ni stay lama sket kat sini. Suka area sini. Dekat dengan hello kitty. And kebetulan the weekend ada iskandar festival. Macam macam ada. Konsert, booths, dino park and many more. Sampai lunyai badan kita ni coz we just came back from melaka trip with my family. First time ada ups and downs macam stress pun ada jugak. Geram je. It went well. Btw ni sambung balik kat Johor before our last stop for hols. Banyak dah activity back to school kat dalam kepala ni. Mummy need to settle coz daddy is away. Kita ajak uncle yed teman la nnt ye. :)

Mummy got wind and sprain shoulder

Adushhh tak penah rasa mcm tu. lapar terok. Kenapa ntah. Rs nak muntah pun ada. Doctor said gastric. So she gave me ubat gastric lah. Then kena jaga food. :( sprained shoulder huishh sakit smp rasa nak demam. Husband urut 3 consecutive nights. Thanks yang. Rasa mcm nak nangis je ..

Orientation day for zara

Daddy made it to her orientation day. Yaay! Daddy made a surprise. Alhamdulillah. Love u darling. Thanx for being there for her. Tapi tau u penat kan. Muahh muahh. Comel je zara. Tak tau apa yg akan she fo thru in her life. Doakan yg terbaik utk anakanda puteri sorang ni.

Congratulations lil girl

we made it to her 6 years old graduation. So much love and laughter and tears and joy can see in her eyes. Even though daddy is not Around, mummy make sure we r there for u. Us (abang, zayyan and mummy) sampai awal la sbb nk send zara, then uncle yed arrive, then tokmak arrived. Tgk dia perform, terina sijil and all. Sebak pun ada. She is growing up. I ada told her that mummy sad sbb lepas ni bila dia darjah 1 she cannot follow mummy go jalan2. She said wait for her to come back lah then we can go jalan2. :(

Anywayss baby, love u so much. May u grow up to be a well being person.

The night before zara's graduation day

Gosh! Was feeling nervous and butterfly in stomach. Not bcoz i am performing, tapi sbb nak bwk kids pegi sana and bersiap bagai. Risau. The journey. Semoga dipermudahkan semuanya. Semua dah siap. Esok i plan bangun awal sket by 10 min. Then kejutkan kids utk mandi. And then off we go. Tak breakfast dulu sbb bwk roti coklat dlm bag. Hurmm.. apala.. btw, brothe and mom is coming along.

Something from my heart

Towards the year end already. Settling report card sessions and year end fiesta for kids. Today extra tirying day for me and maybe baby zayyan as well and luckily the weather is being nice to us today until i settled the sessh altogether. So much i have learned today. Despite being to few report card day for my kids. Learning new things as well for me to gather in my parenting experience and knowledge. I am happy with the level of son doing currently and i am hoping he can do better with more exercises and books. Inshaallah. :)

For daughter, she is entering a new phase next year in her life. School life. A lil bitbof independent i would say. And then left me with zayyan to raise..yes not forgetting more tough task for me as i have 2 kids going to school.

Sometimes the stories mom or MIL share about raising their kids i can relate and i cant relate. Both ada pros and cons bit yup yg mana ok we will take it right. :)

I am bit tensed also today and i have scolded my son for playing outside til even after maghrib. The third time i called him in, then he kena whacked at the feet. I was so geram. Sabar je lah. Then i explained to him why i got so mad. Sampai i dinner pun lambat. Merajuk punya pasal. :( wish cud hug my hubby. Miss him so much.

Mid of the week

My birthday has past for 10 days or more. But it is still november. Still my birthday month. :) semoga dipanjangkan umur & dimurahkan rezeki. What have been ups and downs in my life?

Zafran finished exam already. Partial papers gotten back and some are not. Waiting for the report card day this friday. To ask his teacher on his tips what kind of exercises to be given to him. Si comel sulung ni. Manjaa.. Ohh yes his tupai tooth came out last week..so dah ngongak sekarang. Hehehe.. Nnt kita tuition lagi ye bang. Mummy loves u.

Zara currently feverish. Maybe sbb rindu daddy dia. Medicines dah amik and inshaallah she will be fine. Just kool fever dah hbs. Tadi lupa nak beli kat sana.. Where? We went to buy zara baju kurung for graduation.. Tp dia mula2 nk mcm dress lah kebaya lah. So i said kita beli yang ni dulu lah. Baru yg lain2. Luckily dia faham and agree. Her concert and graduation day fall next week. Tu lah go and prepare her things. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan. Aminn.. :)

Zayyan now getting much more smarter and cuter. Tapi takleh mummy hilang sekejap. Mesti dah nangis lalak. Daddy said clingy.. Started to mentioning few worda at his language lah. To continue speak in english with him.

Love u to the moon and back. Sayang sgt2.

Happy 35th birthday acim!

Alhamdulillah. Adding another year to my age. It is just an age tp sebenarnya banyak nak kena improve diri ni. Hurmm.. Tak mintak bnyk. Semoga dipanjangkan umur, murah rezeki, sihat tubuh badan , dan menjadi isteri, ibu dan anak yang solehah. Aaammiiinnn... :)

Congrats girl

She won first place for both of her category. Contributing to rumah hijau. Inclusive perbarisan & group dance. Soo cute. Tak sia2 mummy ikut joget lagu gummy bear smp tercungap2 kita ni. Takde stamina. Of course lerr. Hehe. 1st category dpt gold medal, second dpt botol air. Okaylah. Btw, kindie sports day semua dpt hadiah. That is why rumah sukan ada  3 warna je. :) so cute. Balik tu tertido letih. All of the kids. Kita layan netflix lah. Apa lagi.

Mlm tu unplanned dinner trip to uptown sbb nk mkm yong taufu. Last week dah pegi tapi since raining we patah balik klg. This week dpt pegi alhamdulillah. Parking dlm building. Senang sket. Kids mcm pelik sbb bnyk kedai makan, choices of food and tmpt mkn tinggi. Hahaha. That was mummy's and daddy's time college dulu suka pegi sana. Dulu lagi pack. Smp taktau nk parking mana. Sekarang not so pack like now. Still can find spaces. :)

Zara's school sports day

Yep. Coming soon. Sibuk berpractise sekarang ni. Macam2 and soo cute my lil darling. Growing up soon to be a primary school student already. Gonna miss all the momenta we had together. :( that was what all mothers have to feel. Ingat anak dia semua kecik lagi. Aduhaii.. :( nak kapuk lagi la busyuk mummy ni.

Bucuk ummy tak sihat

Both son flu. Tp bam je ada cough. Dah jumpa paed tadi. And alhamdulillah nothing serious. Last night was a bit shocking thing for me coz zayyan nangis sampai kejat. Husband was like damn panic when he is soft crying damn hard. Syian dia. Si bongsu mummy. I mula lah risau ni. Kena banyak baca2 lagi info lah. Maybe i have forgotten parts of raising toddlers. Hurmm.. :) bertabahlah dan bersabarlah busyuk mummy. Mummy loves u oll so much.

Lupa nk blog

Hahaha..  Its been a while didnt blog. Mcm terlupa pulak. Bukan apa. Sbb phone i rosak. Told husband to just change the simcard. He insisted to wait for another 2 weeks. Getting me new phone. I said tak payah save his money. Hurmm.. Tgk la camne. :(

Happy 35th birthday my busyuk. I love u very much.

Dear husband, yes sometimes i agree and know that we dont overcome certain things together. We dont have the say in common, we got different thought about different things and yet i still love u. Happy birthday to my soulmate, my roomate, my partner, my husband and to my lovely sweetheart. Yup rasa mcm u je yg boleh faham wife u yg mmg pelik ni kan. Hahaha. Wished for more birthdays with u dear husband. Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki, love u always. Currently i tgh rasa missing dia sgt. Mcm rinduuuu sgt. Why arr??

I am recovering

Alhamdulillah. Recovering. Tinggal batuk je. Stopped on the medication. Continue with honey + warm water. Well it tasted weird with different kind of honey tapi i tau it is good. Just that i have to drink lots of water. Yes especially when i am still breastfeeding si conet comel. I cant imagine how he insisted bf when i was down with fever. Flu tak sgt tp fever. My body is hot and yet dia tak kisah tu. Syian dia. I felt like my body is soo dehydrated smp air susu pun takde. Towards the second week husband blk from outstation baru i looked ok and feel ok. Kena minum bnyk air kosong lagi. :(

Almost a week, mummy is not fully recovered

Yep! Hari tu rasa mcm rindu sgt kt husband time tak sihat. Pastu mcm2 benda negative keep on appearing kt my mind that makes me sad. Apa lahh.. :( bored with the body feelings. I ada times mcm lost. Mcm asik nak tido je. Boring lah. Husband told me to go to see doctor again tp i said takyah. Let me fight with my own antibody. And give it back to the weekends.

Mummy is down with flu, cough & fever

Yes its true. Weak sgt kita rasa. Husband away. Kita mcm sad sgt. :( dah pegi check doctor. Doc said biasa je. Virus. Jangkitan. Huhu. So bertabahlah mummy. :(

Late post - melaka trip

At first mmg plan to stop by makan nan pak putra. Last2 husband ckp kita stay sini satu malam lagi lah. Kids was like seronoklah dia.. tp takde pool. Just to rest aje. Mlm tu lepas mkn roti nan, bwk kids naik river cruise. Si zara katanya tak penah naik. The last time we went there when she was 2 yo rasanya. Syian dia. Hope she enjoyed the ride. Angin dia buat orang ngantuk include zayyan. Lepas tu kita lunch kt tepi warong before exit ayer keroh. Boleh tahan food dia. Semua makan around 15 include air. Pastu make our move back to klg.

Smp klg , kita terus pegi dobi sbb weather tak menentu. Malas nak tggu lama2 so kita send dry terus. Balik terus lipat and simpan dlm almari. At least tak bnyk sgt kain kotor nak cuci kan. :)

End of our long trip.

Late post - desaru trip

It started a very last minute. The place we wanted to go is full on the date we decided to go. So we chose another date that is still available. And alhamdulillah we secured 3 days 2 nights stay ar Sand & Sandal, Desaru. Open air concept. The reception was a lil bit slow include the housekeeping coz we arrived at 4.15 and nearly 5 baru dapat check in. Ok wow! The room was nice. Got bath up outside at the balcony. Btw, we bought the bubble balls to put in the tub. Enjoyed ourselves so far. The pool and the sea semuanya best sgt. Laut soo beautiful. Angin. Tp cannot play long coz it was raining. Despite of raining, kids and other hotel guests pun continue playing.. malam dinner sedap dekat firefly restaurant. It was by the river. Jauh ke dalam nak pegi sana. Tp ramai org. Hubby took the package for rm70 include tomyam, sotong, sayur, fish and 2 juices. Kids order air lain..kenyang betol. Hehehe.. :) the next day, breakfast was all good. Food dia boleh tahan. As usual, i take nasi lemak tp it taste biasa. Daddy belanja latte for mummy. Mekacih. Hehehe.. :) after that swing by the pool and sea again. Kids really enjoyed themselves there.. smp almost 12 baru naik sbb tak panas sgt. Then kenyangkan kids, our turn to get in the tub. Syok. Hubby ckp kita berdengkur. Ternap pulak. Hehe.. selesa kot. Almost 2 baru kuar pegi lunch sambil pegi laundry. Mkn nasi mcm biasa. Pastu petang pool balik. Smp senja. Mlm dinner kfc je. Tapau mkn kt dlm bilik. Kenyang. Tomorrow another journey back home.

When the kids get alltogether

Hadoiiii..hari ni mmg extra tired. Sometimes time noon kita nak jugak nap ke apa. But when the kids semua ada sini, rimas pun ada. Nak itu nak ini. Patut tadika kejap je. 3 jam. Hopefully other parties tu be sensitive with other people's conditions. Sometimes kita pun serba salah. Bila buat mcm tu katanya kita tak reti jaga budak. If compare org lain, lagi teruk. :(

Rasa a bit weird

Donno lah. Maybe it is just my feelings. Sometimes wonder btol ke apa i buat ni. Hadoii.. Kesian kids. Love u all so much. To daddy , sorry mummy isnt that good in helping u out. Tolong sket2 je lah :)

Its been a while dah lama tak selfie dengan kids especially bam

Hahaha. Too cute :)