@ home b4 moving out

woke up ard 9.30am. guess so have enuf sleep last nite but i was bitten by mosquitoes on left n right's hand. syian i. =( ade mark la tapi tak luka ok. juz red red dots. haha. manja nye bunyi. hehe. slalu kalo ade kena gigit nyamuk, nnt ngadu kat hubby. pastu as usual hubby will like aler syian die. kena gigit nyamuk. then, die gosok2 my hand. hehe. that's y i said i ni soooo manja. today, i kemas kemas my almari. ade part2 tu i nangis sbb tensi tensi la. hmm.. hubby lak takleh nak cakap sbb bz ngan family die. hmm.. pastu i pun pk malas la nak ckp ngan die. nak merajuk. pastu jap lagi dh ok balik. emotional terlebih plak. haha. i start kemas roughly round 10. tak mandi pun time tu. juz berus gigi basuh muka then breakfast makan roti coklat n air kosong. oklah. kenyang. i kemas2 smp ade like 10 bungkus. ingat nak bawak sumer pastu hubby ckp " don burden urself by carrying unnecessary stuff. yg mane yg u tak pkai sgt leave at home. so selepas mendengar sumer bebelan hubby kat i, oklah, i filtered it down to 6 bungkus. i mean 2 bungkus kain batik, satu travelling bag, satu paper bag, satu hand bag (the same size as my GUESS handbag) abd satu beg raga i. almost the same size as my paper bag. haha. then, hubby tak ckp ape. i mula2 decided nak bawak sumer sbb mum ckp die nak renovate umah. so nk kluarkan sumer barang, so easier for the carpenters and the working ppl to do their job. n she said dad yg suruh. i pun wonder.. btul ke ni ar.. i macam tak sure je. i asked sis tapi she pun tak tau. n roughly ard3 habis kemas. pastu angkat some of the stuff masuk dlm keta. penat ni. fuh..fuh.. macam nak semput. pastu rest la kejap. then mandi air sejuk. tak gune water heater pun sbb i mandi ard 3 something kan. badan pun macam panas sket. mandi air sejuk tu lega sket.. cam sumer feelings yg tak puas hati, anger, emo terlebih, bengang... sumer kluar. n rasa SOOOOOOOO LEGA..... fush! sejuk. je. rasa best sgt. cam baru kuar dari mandi air terjun. lpas mandi, siap2 nak kuar ngan hubbyy jap. gi beli stuff kat jusco. like laundry basket, dustbin, utilities nye kotak. we spent like rm100. ohh.. before tu gi lunch dulu sbb i tak makan nasi lagi. n hari ni jugak i dah start to do my budget. daily expenses like i used to do before. seriously shit this time. nak btul2 control la sbb mmg ingat nak bawak kuar myvi. so must save n save more to achieve my aim. balik shopping, hubby gi basuh keta. then gi makan lagi. i took maggie goreng n milo tarik. kenyang la kan. haha. syok.. balik tu plak. dad call ckp mum takde kat umah. Allah. i baru je smp umah ingat nak happy then takpela.. take it la kan. * sabar * sabar * then, dad told to go to pkns. me n bob gi sane. bob drive ke sane. shuu!! hehehe... then we split to find her. finally jumpe die. i asked her y she pegi sane. she said pegi spa nak buat rambut. tapi i said y tak ask me earlier so i can bring her there. to my saloon la. then she said lupakan la perkara 2 3 jam sebelum. then i said lupakan la perkar berpuluh tahun dulu k. then she mentioned something bout him. then i said back lupekan la bekas tunang tu dulu. then she got no more points n trus diam. macam2 la. i was trying to go with the flow. dunno la. trying my best. my mum ni sorang je. anyone with experience handling bipolar mood cases??? do send me some suggestions n what i shud do. thanx....